Right the wrongs

As much as I have been able to I’ve tried to right the wrongs I’ve done in life.

Where I wished someone ill, I’ve blessed them instead. Where I was able to make some recompense I have tried. Where I needed to ask for forgiveness I put out genuine effort to make amends. And even though I’m sure I’ve left many blind spots uncared for, at least my aim has been true.

I very often pray that all the rights of the world be corrected. That those that have prospered unscrupulously be stripped. That those that have benefited from violence, theft, and even just turning a blind eye have their entitlements all swept away. That this reset go back through all of time and space to realign the world and its bounty to its rightful heirs. That the noble, peaceful, spiritual souls have their deserved place.

I realize this sounds extreme and what would ensue would be a mass transformation in almost every single sector and speck of this world, an extraordinary upheaval even.

So why do I pray for such outlandish and seemingly impossible things?

Because it makes me feel good to believe it could maybe one day be so.


What I actually think needs to happen is that people need to take back their power. They need to stop playing by the rules set for them, the structures put in place to bind them and create their own systems that actually benefits them and safeguards them, their families, loved ones, this planet and all of humanity.

Until we see each other as a global family we will be drawn into endless divide, wars and skirmishes. But just like every family, there needn’t be assimilation, as much as acceptance of diversity and letting people be who they are.

I, for one, would like to see less laws and more personal accountability.

I would like to see less judgement and more leeway for people that aren’t like “us”.

I would like to see more acceptance and less hypocrisy.

More generosity and less ambivalence and selfishness.

I know the world I would like to see.

A world where children don’t have to be safeguarded and sheltered from the atrocities of a society that doesn’t truly value them. A society that, say what it will to contradict it, shows in its actions that it only truly values brute force, grotesque riches and false demigods.

I love this world. I love this planet. I love the innate beauty and breath of nature and our own glorious hearts and souls. I have hope that wrongs can indeed be righted. That we can turn the tide of humanity around.

But this needs to start on an individual basis first. Opening our hearts, offering forgiveness, righting our own wrongs, building bridges, and walking our own individual walk towards true salvation and heartfelt community.

Is this an easy ask? No. Not at all. Most people pick the easiest route in life. They stick to what they know and don’t bother caring about much else.

And what I’m talking about will take a surge towards honor and real virtue* on a scale yet unseen in our modern history in order to topple the vices that run and ruin this world currently.

I say this, but I don’t think I see things the way most people seem to.

I see most laws as unnecessary, most rulers as heathens and most people as deprived of true meaning ttheir lives.

And this is all connected. It is all deeply connected. We are all deeply connected.



*Real virtue isn’t about sanctimonious judgement of others and control of anything but our one self, our own actions, our own thoughts. Real virtue is who one is when no one is watching and what one does when no one seems to be counting. Real virtue is genuine and accountable to itself in all circumstances. It is not driven by outside forces or whims. It does not bow to anyone but the markers of one’s own soul and the journey we wish it to have.

Maybe just maybe

Yesterday I defrosted the freezer. It wasn’t even that full or that frosted but it was still a huge chore. After I restarted it, it kept leaking water into the fridge. But that seems to have resolved the issue and it seems to be working now. I’ll need to buy a fridge thermometer to make sure though.

So then I also ended up going to the singles event I spoke of earlier. It was about what I expected. Not a lot of people and most everyone in their 20’s and 30’s. I left rather quickly. And consoled myself at the bar, where I had 2 large ciders. I thought all was well until I woke up at 3am with the absolute worst headache and struggling to breath. My sleep apnea was acting up fiercely.

Let me sidetrack here for a minute.

I’ve had a few people steal from me. Nothing drastic. Recently had to cancel a bank card and a credit card because of fraudulent charges. And I’ve had quite a few people steal from me in person: a couple bartenders, a few gas station attendants, a few cashiers. Nothing over $20 that I’m aware of, but still irritating. I never say anything, usually because I don’t notice until after the fact but also because I just don’t see the point. It’s on their conscience not mine and it never seemed worth the trouble.

But by stealing they put themselves in karmic debt to me. So I decided last night, while I was struggling in bed, to call on that debt. I called out to all the souls that have stolen from me and asked for the debt to be repaid in life-energy. I already knew that to communicate with another soul one doesn’t need their permission or even awareness. Most people don’t operate on a level to be aware of small fluctuations in their energy fields.

I have never done this before so I wasn’t sure it would even work or what the response would be. But sure enough I started to feel better and much more energized and I was able to fall asleep comfortably. I woke up with a little, tiny hungover, but nothing compared to that 3am wakeup call.

I know I need to stop drinking. Why I’m an idiot and let myself continue especially when my liver has been hurting recently seems like a death wish on my part. I wish I had a simple answer. I wish I had some justifiable excuse. I don’t. I’m just a moron.

But I learned something new. It seems I learn a lot of my lessons in life from doing things I should not necessarily be doing. It doesn’t justify it but at the same time I’m happy to have gained knowledge.

Maybe just maybe I can start learning things the easy way. But I just don’t know that I see that happening yet. Here’s to keeping up hope.


It is better

It is better to be wanted than needed

It is better to be liked than loved

It is better to be respected than feared

It is better to be oneself than liked for an imposter

It is better to be honest than popular

It is better to be true to yourself than bend to false gods

It is better to stand for something than commit to nothing

It is better to look the part of the devil than actually be it

It is better to have honor in the face of none than have millions cherish one for mere vices and distractions

These are a few things I’ve found to be true, for myself at least.