My esoteric life

I love philosophy. I love studying religions, spiritual customs and beliefs. I love psychology. I also love science, I simply don’t put as much credence into it as most people tend to I think. Knowing that everything is subject to change and our vantage of reality is truly very small.

What I see is a world of almost limitless possibilities. A world limited only by lack of imagination.

I am passionate about people because they are my favorite thing about living. And I am determined to try to make life better for everyone, for all of humanity, not just myself and my children; as much as I can at least.

I think the way I do and act the way I behave because I see so much more to this existence than we are told and taught to see and I love exploring it all.

I read this today and it intrigued me greatly.

true philosophers, people who were so passionate about discovering new ideas that nothing could stop them from pursuing them. “Philosophy” literally means “love of wisdom.” Most people would never reach this level, but those who did should rule the world — because they love and understand unchanging truth.“*

What I say in this blog, comes out of a place of deep admiration of the world and gratitude for living and an exploration and understanding of it.

This place is far from perfect, but it is home and I do love it.

And even if I don’t see it as most people seem to; I know there are so very few absolutes here, and that makes it easy to not get too attached to any of it.

But I do still intend to keep living this life to the fullest capacity I can.

And so I say, as Jonathan Swift did

“May you truly live all the days of your life” as well.



*From this article.

Theosophy and a new digestive aid

I learned about theosophy and Ukrainian born Helena Blavatsky yesterday (1832-1907). Mystic, world traveler, mother of the current new age movement, one of the first known people to travel to India and study formal Buddhism. Solo female traveler in an age when that simply wasn’t done unless you held a royal title and an all around bad-ass woman. Controversial, sure but that seems par for the course.

This world is just so fascinating to me. And I’m intrigued by this movement. I’ve already made a formal inquisition to join a local group for a session, once that is available. I’m going to plow through the videos on the website too when I have a chance. But that chance won’t be for a few weeks, at the very least.

I’m so glad there is something that can be an adjunct to any religion, or something for us “spiritual not religious” types, that isn’t in and of itself a religion or doctrine.

I have been seeking something like this since I was a teenager and that’s why I have studied and read and searched through so many different religions. Trying to find the best in all of them, yet falling short of actually forming any alliance because I could see the pitfalls and some form of hypocrisy, misogyny and greed in almost all of them.

And spirituality has always been such an important part of who I am. It’s something I have felt so strongly about that I would rather lay it down than belong to something that doesn’t resonate with my heart completely. Something that I can’t truly give myself to I refuse to give my name to either let alone my allegiance.

And as much as I love all the things Christ said and did I am deeply opposed to the corruption and deception within the religions that have been created in his name. I truly believe if Christ lived today he would not consider himself a “Christian” or “Catholic” or any other of the myriad of religions based around him. In fact I dare say he would be absolutely appalled by everything most religions say and do “in his name”.

Because he was a pure spirit who professed true love and compassion towards all and that seems lost to most people who profess to be religious. And the hypocrisy of some people thinking themselves worthy (because they read the bible and go to church) but in reality being judgemental, selfish assholes truly sickens me.

I don’t profess to be Godly, I profess to know God. I profess that our souls hold part of the miracle of pure love that encompasses everything and everyone. And that it’s up to each one of us to either forge that bridge within ourselves between spirit and world or kill it. And I dare say most people ignore it or conveniently only address it when it’s beneficial to do so. It’s the all talk no substance issue.

Lying to benefit oneself, ignoring the pleas and needs of fellow mankind and being self-centric may seem like the natural and correct state of being in such a cruel world. The you have to take what you can get, at any cost, because it may be your only chance mentality. Right?

But people don’t see the cost to their soul within that paradigm. So they disregard the right thing to do for humanity over what they consider the most prudent thing to do for themselves and keep keeping on with their justifications.

And I don’t care who takes offense to any of what I say or how I say it. I mean what I say and say what I mean. And I’m not purposefully trying to hurt anyone. I am trying to shake people awake; out of the shackles of hatred and selfishness they’ve grown accustomed to carting around.

The world, your world, my world, all world’s are so much better when we live with authenticity and heart; when we live truly spirit-centric.

And how people don’t see this really fucking boggles my mind. 🤷🏽‍♀️


So a client that suffers from SIBO and chronic constipation came to see me the week before I closed up shop. I had recommended a book to her for cleaning out her colon. She told me she liked it but that the protocols within it were too complicated. So she started simply adding diatomaceous earth to her daily regimen of supplements. Mixing in a few teaspoons a day to liquid and stated that she was feeling really great and very regular.

I didn’t tell her that this would be an effective way to sluff off parasites because I’ve noticed that some people can’t accept that we have them. But I consider parasites like cancer cells. At any given time we have them in our bodies and most of the time our immune system takes care of them. Except that a lot of factors go into our immunity working at full capacity: stress, diet, sleep, pH balance, on and on.

What I did note is that she usually has very good sessions and this session she had subpar output; which confirmed her self-assessment. I was happy she found an easy solution for herself. And I was glad I could be a small part of her figuring that out.

I always say people need to listen to their own instincts. And that they know their bodies better than anyone else ever will.


So that’s my soap box for today.

Now to get to work. Super busy. But happy. Content. Letting the world be madness if it wants to be and helping where I can when I can. Which is all any of us can do really.

God bless us all❣️


When is it too late?

When is fate sealed? When can one no longer turn back? When is one set to lose one’s soul to an ill full fate?

Very fortunately for us and maybe not so much for those who love the idea of vengeance, not until the very end.

I like to believe this because I like to think that no one is truly hopeless. I like to believe that everyone’s heart can be touched by something or someone. That everyone has an opportunity for redemption at absolutely any point in their journey.

It’s a very naive view maybe. But having hope for humanity, having faith in humankind to figure things out, learn to truly cohabitate with themselves, their inner demons and all others, for the betterment of all including this planet, is possible. Maybe not probable, but I chose to believe possible.

It keeps me from becoming bitter. It keeps me able to open my heart. It keeps me wanting to see the possible good in everyone and everything.

I just wish there were much more of that to see.🙏🏽❣️