I am exhausted – moving and eBay

But we have the garage mostly cleared out. I have so much more stuff for the garage sale than I even realized. And I haven’t even been through the house yet.

My muscles ache, my nose is stuffy, I didn’t sleep soundly because I went to sleep hungry and my stomach woke me up not once but twice. Had applesauce the first time and yogurt the second.

This will be the first time in over 12 years that I really try to make a go out of doing eBay as a main hustle and not a side business. I’m glad to have the opportunity, experience and mostly that it comes easy to me. But it isn’t necessarily something I enjoy doing. Usually when you’re good at something it helps you enjoy it. This is not that case.

eBay is isolating, requires a lot of detail and organization, centers around materialism, and having to deal with people who get upset over trivial issues and placate them to maintain my 100% positive feedback status gets tiresome. I also don’t like that it’s a 24/7 business. People expect answers and their items yesterday.

But it does come easy to me and there is an aspect when I sell my own things that reminds me of gambling and seems to satisfy that urgency of chance. So that is a definite positive.

So this will be my way to see if I can really pull it off as a full-time gig. I knew a man in CA who was a car guy. He bought salvage cars for cheap, took them apart and sold the working parts on eBay. He had a large warehouse with 4 employees taking home over 100k a year. But he had a niche. I am a jack of all trades. I have no niche besides eBay experience and a penchant to try anything once.

It’s paid off before but it also means accumulating stuff. Most successful full time ebayers have massive amounts of storage for it and hundreds of listings up at a time. All of that sounds exhausting to me right now. The only part I really enjoy is buying. I love going to garage sales. Research, photography, listing, those are all massive time sucks that give me no pleasure at all.

But, money does give me pleasure. And considering all the jobs I’ve had and things I’ve done for it, eBay selling isn’t that bad. It’s just not something I’m passionate about. But I have 4-6 months to scale up and see if I can really make it happen. Make it viable for paying my mortgage.

I’m going to do something I’ve never done before and advertise, selectivity. I suppose if I really blow up I can get a large storage shed for the backyard and maybe some part-time help. Whatever it takes to really make a go of it. Having a store front is so much easier but then again it has to be manned and that requires many more expenses.

And while I genuinely enjoyed having a store front business before; I loved people coming in to visit and sharing their time and lives with me, I also wasn’t a single mom with three kids then.

Well. We shall see. I’m just gonna keep my head up, keep working hard and following the leads.

Everything is subject to change and I am gonna go with the flow as much as I possibly can. I have a week to get this house ready and us moved. No time for lollygagging.

Seize the day!


Alive and Kicking

“What’s it gonna take to make a dream survive?”

Last night was hard and also good. I started a documentary I’m really enjoying on Native American healing.

I’ve realized that I’m allergic to dust and pollen. And having to work on the garage sends my nose into intense overdrive. Plus it’s just not really fun.

I have 12 days until the renters come and I don’t feel anywhere near ready. I had a bit of an anxiety attack last night, but I just kept myself busy working through it. Then the preteen came home and threw up for hours. We don’t know if it’s her anxiety, the new meds, or what? But that wasn’t fun either.

My coping mechanism? A dose of THC and meditation/prayer. I was finally able to sleep after a few hours of deep breathing. I slept well and woke up feeling ok. Still a lot on my mind but just gonna do the best I can.

Since I haven’t heard back from the food pantry I think I’ll just make the second day of the garage sale a “free or whatever you want to pay” day and give half the money to the food bank.

Generally, because I have a lot of junk and left overs from clients and reselling I make about $500-700 per garage sale and I haven’t had one in a few years so I have a large accumulation of things. But with the economy and pandemic I’m not even thinking I’ll come close to that. Even though I’m getting rid of some high ticket items; my Bob stroller, bicycles, watches, tons of collectibles. I think I may pull one or two things from the free day that I know I can sell on Craigslist but otherwise it’s all going. And free is perfectly fine with me.

Today is my only “day off” I’m giving myself from packing and organizing and I still have to box and ship out three items, send a fax to the unemployment office and go to Home Depot for a water main shut of tool. Which is fine. No room for laziness right now.

The sun is shining. The ground is still under my feet. Life marches on. Enjoy the splendor of living. And if you can’t find it anywhere, keep looking. 😉