Brad and I were talking about whores

Is the best way to start this I guess. Then he asked me something about how to make money on me? I said no fucking way. He can help me make money or I can make money off of him. He said how and I said by him being my real gimp and he said ok. Just like that. Lol

To which I had to tell him I don’t have the set up for that. My life is so funny….. sometimes.

To my not so little gem

I love you baby
And I love that you found Sam
He really is a nice guy
It seems you are surrounded by nice guys though
Which is a blessing
But unfortunately
Sometime in your life
You’re going to get your heart broken
It seems almost inevitable
Even in marriage there can be some heartbreak
Sometimes
So just know
You will recover
And I am always here for you
I wanted to send this before you needed it
Kind of like having the sex talk with you way before needed
I love you like the beautiful person you are inside and out
💋💖🥰
You make my life happy.

Stuck on a wall

I feel sometimes like I’m stuck in a kingdom

And I don’t know the rules or parameters

I don’t know its people or its customs

I don’t know the terrain

All I know is I have to keep cleaning my section of the wall

And I’d like to just turn around and look at the sky and take a few deep breaths

But my mind keeps telling me I have to turn around and keep cleaning the wall

And I don’t want life to feel that way

This anger

It’s not just about my own suffering

That seems like it would be enough to bear but nope

It’s about the suffering of others

The suffering of the world

And sometimes all you can do is witness

Which is why I will do what I can from where I am

It’s all I can really do

If I had the skill and knowledge to avert world wars I’d go the white house stat. Lol

Secret and cool fan kingdom

On so fan kingdom may be a mild exaggeration. Unfortunately. Lol

But to know I have people that, let’s just say from gently admire me to just want a glance once in a while maybe, or catch me in something or somewhere in life. I like to know I have my anonymity. Even though it may be a false one. Lol

That way I don’t feel my thoughts need to be censored into wrong or right. They just have to be me; hopefully my authentic own self. The squishy vulnerable one inside. Likes to come out to play too. To witness, to help if I can, but to see. To truly see. I can’t help being a fallible human being. This is me trying baby!!

💋💋💋