I’ve decided to be stupid – Missing Intimacy

I’ve been talking about it for a while but I am disconnecting from social media (not WordPress) and all news. I’ll no longer know about current affairs unless someone happens to tell me. I’ll be completely oblivious to everything happening in the world that I am not directly aware of or someone hasn’t told me about. And therefore I will be considered stupid by many people.

But here’s the thing. My obligation in life is to myself and my children and to my world. The world I inhabit. And I will be a much happier and centered person disconnecting from the news and social media. No more Buzzfeed, no more Reddit, no more Google News. This will free up time and hopefully motivate me to actually read real books. Which I sorely miss but don’t make the time for.

So stupids I wills become. Who cares? No one has to live with the consequences of what I put in my brain more than I do. And I want to focus on the positive and I want to achieve personal growth. I want to master myself and the things I am giving up weren’t helping in those endeavors at all. So yea. Adios news and social media ❣️

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I miss intimacy. I had my massage today. It was wonderful and it felt great to be touched but obviously it didn’t abate my strong desire for real intimacy; both the emotional and physical kind.

I met a guy last night. Seemingly rich, nice, but he looks more like a cuckold than a bull. I doubt he’s seen his shoelaces in decades. We exchanged business cards. Maybe we can network or have dinner. But I can’t see it going anywhere. I don’t need to be kept. Not that it doesn’t feel good to have all your material needs met by someone else. I can’t say I hate that. Just that in no way does it motivate me to want to date a man. Like at all.

You’d think finding a lover would be a lot easier than this. 😒🤨😤

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

4 thoughts on “I’ve decided to be stupid – Missing Intimacy”

    1. It won’t. Although I feel bad for the people suffering all over the world. Somehow just knowing and witnessing it although not enough seemed like the very l ast I could do. And now I do feel like I’m turning my eyes to it. But I don’t have that kind of power, money or authority. I have my own issues to contend with. I do all I can. And that has to be enough. It really does. Right?

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