I’ve cried so much today. My eyes are puffy little slits dripping water intermittently like a leaky faucet.
I’m not used to my emotions overwhelming me like this. Its unsettling. But I guess that’s part of life too and it’s definitely been part of my life since New Year’s Eve.
I knew grief was difficult. And I’m struggling with a lot more on my plate than just the grief. So it’s completely understandable that I’m having a difficult time and that my emotions are a bit out of whack.
I’m trying to allow myself grace. I’m not going to try to fix anything or force myself to “get over” anything. I’m just going to ride it out. Keep moving forward even if it feels like I’m moving through molasses and have no clear idea of how or when things will get better, easier or more manageable for me emotionally.
It will be whatever it is.