Sure, if you were white…..

I’m so tired of the racial disparity being pointed out over and over. It’s existence reinforced on a daily basis. I’m sick of talking about micri-aggressions and outright bigotry. I’m so tired of seeing stories of systemic racism all over the world, and especially here.

I know that we are at an awakening phase. I know there is no going back to simpler times when it was accepted as how things simply were. Racism, sexism, even ageism and genderism are having a moment of reckoning.

This is a good thing. And it’s the only way to root out the issue from the ground level, where it needs to be exorcised: from people’s conscious and even more destructive subconscious.

Yes, I understand it. It all makes perfect sense. But it’s so disappointing to see. It’s so upsetting to see how much bigotry truly can affect ones entire life in profoundly negative ways.

Brad said to me a couple days ago, as we were watching old game shows from the 60’s and 70’s, something to the affect of “The US was such a perfect place 40 years ago.”. To which I simply responded “yea, if you were white.”. You could hear crickets chirping outside after my reply.

Why I have to explain to a grown ass white man anything about racism is truly unbelievable to me. It’s disheartening. It’s disturbing. I feel like I get my heart broken over and over at people who have no idea how hard life can be when you’re on the wrong side of this.

Sure, I’ve wished I was born a white, rich, educated, straight man, throw in good looking and life would be at it’s ideal as far as demographics….at least for life here.

But I wasn’t given that golden ticket. Was I? And maybe the day will come when technology can give us any skins we want to have. So we can choose exactly what we want to look like when we walk out the door. We can choose to be anything we could possibly desire. Half women, half mermaid. Done. Purple alligator man. Done. I mean why not?

But until then I’m stuck with what I got at birth. And while it was easy to escape even thinking too much about racism and my place at the bottom rung of most these divisions in California, that is simply not the case most places. That’s what I truly miss the most about California, feeling like I very naturally, simply belonged.

Now I obviously belong where I am because that’s where I am, irregardless of how others may feel about it. Fate ultimately decided.

But these growing pains are as hurtful to my psyche as they are to those being bitch slapped for their outright prejudices. And the fact that people are fighting so hard to defend their destructive words and stances is even more hurtful. But the vapid apologies to not be canceled out seem even worse.

I don’t have any answers here. I wish we didn’t have to be here. I really do.

But growing pains are just that….painful. For everyone!!!


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

9 thoughts on “Sure, if you were white…..”

  1. t is sad to think there are many “Brads” out there in the world. if watch a show like All in the family and think there is no racism i think you have a problem. Being a male whose Father was from Mexico and Mother from England. I saw my Mother’s family disown her until my Dad died and then her brothers and Sisters came back into our lives. it wasn;t until years later that i realized what was really happening. After all the brothers and sisters passed , my Mom was the last i never see any of those cousins. It’s like my sister, brother and myself do not exist. So i know understand racism within my own family. Sadly, i don’t know if it will ever change. i wonder how it will be for my grand children. I know i have heard stories from my 3 daughters.
    One can only pray for Peace N Love for all

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  2. Well I’m white , born into a middle class family , geneticly gifted and to everyones knowledge am straight. I don’t know any differentso it’s hard to compare. Untill there is some way to swap bodies with other people no one can really know what its like to be different from who we are born as.
    Sometimes things don’t seem to be changeing but if Brad was to watch films made 40yrs ago I think he might be shocked at how racist and sexist we really were. xox Howie

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    1. I genuinely believe he doesn’t see it or doesn’t want to see it. Either way it’s disappointing. I can understand people that shelter themselves. They don’t have friends of other races.

      We don’t have to live someone else’s life to have compassion for them. To open our hearts to try to understand their experience. That’s ridiculous. Just because I’m not an abused puppy doesn’t mean I can’t understand how that’s wrong to be abused and how devastating that could be for the puppy.

      Please don’t make excuses for anyone.

      If people just tried to stop living their own selfish narrative and truly opened their eyes and ears to others none of these issues would even exist in the first place.

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      1. True. Sorry. I wasn’t saying we shouldn’t empathise with others… more that we should try to understand what it would be like to be treated the way we treat some people as best we can however untill we are that person its hard to know ‘exactly’ how it feels.
        For example I had a workmate who was very tall but otherwise just another worker but every new employee would assume he was in charge. Just saying its the tiny things that we might not think of that make people as well as the obvious things.
        I wasn’t making excuses.

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        1. Yes. True. It’s our own ingrained prejudices that make life unbearable. We need to learn to control our thoughts and actions. People need to understand their own drives. There needs to be individual accountability and the fact that the system was rigged to favor one subset of people should be something we don’t argue about anymore. We simply fix. But that change has to be from within. Tackling it with laws and social condemnation is a start but until people become more compassionate and see for themselves their own inner bigotry it will not end.

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