After a week of having to adjust to mother nature’s wrath I was so glad to sleep in my own warm bed. Some of my neighbors, not even two blocks away don’t have power yet.
I took a heavy dose of THC and slept like a drunk baby. Woke up feeling very refreshed. Now I have to stock the fridge, wash a mound of dishes and I’d like to get to the gym.
The cats were so happy to see us. The finicky little beauty laid in my lap for hours last night purring away.
But…..looks like the teenager is moving out today. She gave fair warning. It is what it is. I love her, will support her however I can and wish her well. I can’t imagine her living with him in his tiny studio apartment will go all that well, but he says he will try to stay with his girlfriend as much as possible.
She knows this isn’t a revolving door situation. But I’m okay with it. She wanted unlimited freedom to do as she pleases with no one to check in with. Let’s see how that goes. Maybe it will be great for her. She is after all going to college later this year. She’d be on her own there.
Now that she won’t be here lying to me and giving me stink eye all day, every day, battling me over every little thing I can see her as my prescious little girl more clearly. I have never meant her any harm by my expectations and rules. Maybe one day she will see that.
I had all these great thoughts last night (to my mind) that I was going to write down first thing this morning and of course I can’t remember a single one of them. Lol
It’s a beautiful day. A sunny, cold winter day surrounds me. Supposed to rain every day this week.
Moment by moment. Exhale. Inhale. Breath in peace of mind. Breath out tension. Trying to look at the world through the filter of my heart. Wish I had someone here to guard it for me. Such is not my fate it seems. So it’s up to me I guess but I’m not in defense mode right now.
I’m just trying to surrender to the mystery of what is.
Meanwhile in Texas. Cruz tried to leave the state, but people stepped up to help each other. Which is a true testament to the spirit of love and compassion.