I am amazed at my neutrality right now in regards to almost all aspects of my life.
I’m taking things as they are, as they come and not letting stress or worry bog me down.
I’m feeling not so much ambivalent as free.
Which I can’t necessarily justify at all because if you look at my life on paper and presented it to people like “this is your life now”, 99% of them would probably go screaming for the hills.
And yet I am at peace with it.
It doesn’t feel like a feat of strength. It also doesn’t feel like resignation or defeatism. It just feels like acceptance with this underlying calm neutrality.
How I could have achieved this in the middle of so much turmoil is astounding to me? I guess strength comes when you need it. Very fortunate human trait of adaptability I suppose.
Whatever it is I am grateful for it. I truly am.