(Wrote this last night way too stoned to edit it before posting. I don’t think it’s anything novel or revolutionary. But I’m trying not to filter myself so much and just post what I feel, with no justification needed for it. Lol)
Connecting to my Soul
That’s what I try to do in this life. But we have to deal with so much false information here and then also just subsist and then add in all the social absurdities.
And I’m thinking I’ve probably gotten a few big ticket items wrong in this life. Right? I mean. We all have blind spots. We all have idiosyncrasies, faults and failings. I try to not turn a blind side to my own issues. I try to figure out who I am and why I am and see if there’s room for improvement. And I appreciate constructive criticism. But also. At some point we all just want to live and breath and have space to make our own mistakes.
My point is….that I have a strong suspicion that connecting to my soul is my real objective here and even if I’m wrong it’s something I’m willing to gamble my entire life on because I believe it to the very depths of my being and even just the payoff in happiness and peace of mind is worth it to me. It really is.
But……I can grasp that in my current human amalgamation I may be doing things completely wrong by a lot of standards. I mean I could be. I may be. I don’t have a problem admitting that.
Because it is my firm belief that this reality is a game of subjective objectivity.
It’s a simultaneous illusion of many spirits and souls, angels and demons, aliens and other beings interacting simultaneously in this plane of existence. There are so many more things than what we think we see and understand going on in this realm.
Just take ghosts, miracles, coincidences that are beyond coincidental. Then take all the things we aren’t told the correct information about like psychic powers, aliens, God, our very souls.
But what can we expect from a government that doesn’t even teach us general information about our own bodies. First aid 102 should be an explanation of the body and it’s functions and the proper monitoring of them. This would maybe get men to understand the importance of yearly physicals. Lol
So all this to say look…….
I may have some shit really wrong. I have my glaring faults. I have my vast issues. But at the end of the day I mostly like myself, a lot. And that’s got to be ok. My soul says it is. So, with some of you we may have to agree to disagree on this.
But I have yet to meet someone that is truly immaculate. Because in this life we are all human. This means that in a lot of base ways we are more equal then we can ever be different. And we all suffer from our own delusions.
I just happen to think the values I try to follow benefit everyone and the earth but I could be wrong there too. I think I have a small carbon footprint. I think I leave a positive mark in the world, overall but not always, but who knows what my balance will be at the end.
That is however my goal here…..
To be genuinely myself. To bring the knowledge I have and the love I feel out to play. To make this life truly worth something and make the best of it all. I strive to understand it as best I can and live it in my own way to the extent I am allowed.
I hope one day no one judges me harshly for all these things I say and do. But then also to those people I say…… fuck you! Because if we compile a reel of all the bad things every person has done in their life no one would find themselves free of errors and sins.
People can be so judgemental and self motivated. But I can’t take it personal, even if it is. Because you know what, at the end of the day I have to live in my own head and I have to feel proud of who that is in there. And I’m still working on clearing out more cobwebs so I can know myself even better and be the me I am trying to become.
You do you boo!