It’s exactly 33 degrees fahrenheit and snowing. It’s so very beautiful. It’s sticking a little bit but won’t last I’m sure. It’s like being in a snow globe. Cold but so enchanting.
I have never lived anywhere it snowed before. And maybe it’s because of that I enjoy the changing of the seasons so much. I would probably feel different if I lived somewhere it snowed all the time. Especially because I tend to prefer being hot than being cold.
But I’m taking all the joy I can find in life with deep gratitude.
So my lawyer calls me this morning and says that my mother’s boyfriend’s lawyer isn’t going to acknowledge my right to an autopsy and that the mortuary isn’t either. So if they’ve proceeded with the cremation then the last recourse is to sue for damages.
I told him we’d get to that bridge when we get there. First he has to petition the court and file another motion to expedite the court process so that we can force the autopsy sooner than later.
I know it’s customary to think in terms of money. But this isn’t about money it’s about closure. He says “I’ll have to find you a lawyer that handles that, but you can sue him and the mortuary for a lot of money”. The whole thing is just so much drama. I really want to just throw my hands up in the air, but this is literally the only form of closure I’m going to get. This is my one chance. So I’m going forward, not wanting this fight at all, but surrendering to the fact that I must carry on with it nonetheless.
Ho hum. If my mom was here she would have the last word, I’m sure. But she isn’t. And I guess that’s the whole point. This is my only way to really say goodbye, in her honor. Doing what my heart says is what I need to do, what is right. Thank God the law is on my side. Too bad shitty situations like this exist and need to get to this stage.
I guess we will have to see what happens, not holding my breath.