I’m ready for it

It’s such a strange thing, because I have always felt and said I’m fine alone. And I do feel I am. I need sex, but I don’t feel I necessarily need a man around full-time. I am capable and where I falter and need help I pay for it or figure things out one way or another.

Right now being so vulnerable and feeling so alone in the world and also having gone though everything I have, in regards to dating and the men I’ve chosen……

I feel I’ve learned the lessons I’ve needed to learn and am becoming the person I was meant to be: strong, balanced, feeling my own worth, loving myself, knowing not to settle and fully grasping my own underpinnings.

And in this state where I’m feeling a bit gushy inside I’m feeling open and willing to put down my guards and really let someone in. Like truly let someone in, which for me is truly novel.

I always felt I have been very much like that Bruce Springsteen song “Secret Garden”. Because I have always felt unable to truly bridge to someone emotionally. I have always thought “sure I’ll let you in, but nowhere near my core heart or giving it all.” And I felt fine with that being the case.

But now I feel I’m really ready. But that said I’m still going to hold out for the real thing. Not a perfect man, just the right one for me. The truly right one, who will nurture my heart, reciprocate and feed my love, and be my true friend and companion.

And it’s not scary anymore. The thought of opening up isn’t terrifying, like it used to be. It doesn’t seem impossible or improbable anymore. It seems like a natural progression I needed to make to get here, to a place I feel safe to do that.

So maybe one day…… it will happen. Now that I feel truly ready….. and that makes me happy.

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Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

4 thoughts on “I’m ready for it”

  1. You are strong and now know and understand yourself better your needs and desires. Your openness will radiate and self awareness will manifest and draw to you what you are looking for all it shall take is patience as you care for your daughters.
    Peace N Love

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    1. Thank you sindee. We will see if I’m so lucky. But it’s a new shift for me. One where I feel really ready to be vulnerable and open. It feels good to know what I want, to feel capable of giving it and feel strong enough to hold out for it.

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