Catching my breath

Trying to catch my breath. I’ve had a headache since I got to the airport yesterday that I have not been able to shake yet. I’m hoping this coffee enema knocks it out. Hard to focus on anything when it hurts like this.

Ok so. Where are we?

The autopsy is plugging along, but it could take weeks to get any progress on that with how things are in California right now.

The plumbing got fixed. It took him all day but my handyman found the leak in the ground outside the house. He dug it up and fixed it. The water that came in was clean, but I still need to clean up and disinfect. I’m hoping there is no permanent damage, but to my knowledge this is at least the 3rd time this basement has flooded. Which is why they set up mitigation for that. So hopefully this is also the last.

I haven’t done anything about the loan modification but….. I had put an appeal on another state program for housing assistance and they are looking into the appeal. Now this solution would neccesitate me having to come up with about $40k in cash to settle the money in arrears and bring me current. This mean I’ll have to literally use every penny to my name and borrow money from my father and my ex-husband. But I’ll keep the house. It’s absolutely worth it. But I’ll be living paycheck to paycheck again and will probably have to find another job on top of eBay. Which is fine.

But the naturopath doctor I really wanted to work with texted me. He said he had something he wanted to discuss. I had already approached him about working together. He also came in for treatments. So he knows my work, ethics and belief in holistic medicine. I’m super excited to hear what he has to say. But if this goes through with the house in the way above it will take all my savings I won’t have money to restart my colon practice.

It takes thousands to get the plumbing set up and city permits. I won’t have it. But I’m still curious. He is the exact kind of doctor I would love to work with. He is already using ozone. He firmly believes in colon hydrotherapy and he would be the ideal person to oversee rectal ozone.

But I’m jumping ahead of myself on all of these. Right now it’s all up in the air. But I’m getting quite used to my life being this way, in a holding pattern. Everything is out of my hands right now. Not the most pleasant feeling for someone that likes to be in control, but it also takes a lot of pressure off. Because I literally can’t do a single thing and I’m using that to learn to have patience and stay hopeful. And also, maybe more importantly to leave it to the universe, God, and my fellow humankind to do what they will; keep faith alive and see what happens.

Do I have plan B’s? Not really. I should but I’m so busy playing defense I can’t seem to get into offense mode very well right now; or at all even.

Headache is abating though. I’ll take it. Good morning world❣️


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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