Stuck in the bathroom

Ugghhh…

I am still glad Aaron is here. I feel bad for him though, because we are barely speaking. I’m almost completely ignoring him. But I’m happy doing my own thing and knowing he is here. Even if we can’t carry on a conversation.

He is the epitome of a narcissist. But not the charming kind. He used to be back when he had hope I guess. But now that he’s given up on the world and his life he doesn’t even try to pretend to like anything or anyone.

I asked him how he thought he had changed since we first met 25 years ago and he said “where I was only seething with anger before now I have a plan of action to kill and harm”. It was very dark. I asked him if he meant it and he said nothing and looked very serious.

It’s sad. But it’s nothing I’m taking any responsibility for or can help him with. I’m pretty much one of his only friends. And I’d like to remain his friend but honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if I never see him again.

I asked him if he wanted to have sex. He didn’t think he could. He broke his leg 3 weeks ago and is hobbling around in a walker. So I get that. It didn’t feel personal. Plus he’s an emotional driven person. He probably wants a connection beyond “hey we used to fuck a long time ago”.

He let me snuggle with him in bed. I enjoyed his warmth for an hour and then scooted back to my side and fell asleep. I’m putting no real effort in here. I have no intentions of anything with him. Just more of something to do. I think the fact that I told him that directly didn’t help any.

So I am now in the bathroom trying to masturbate. I don’t even do this at home. But I tried to do this in bed yesterday, but it’s a small studio apartment and he was making me feel that I was making him uncomfortable. And that wasn’t helping me orgasm.

I even offered mutual masturbation. But he’s probably so clinically depressed he may not get hard. I have no idea. Being that men hate talking about that stuff, even when you ask and it concerns you and your sex life.

I think I’m going to offer to drive him home tomorrow instead of Saturday. I like the company but he bums me out too much. Probably better alone.

Well…anyways….wish me luck….for some reason I’m having a hard time orgasming. I can guess it’s my mind and emotions on overdrive but I could really use the release. 💋

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

10 thoughts on “Stuck in the bathroom”

  1. oh my aren’t we tired and strung out. You really need a break where someone is taking care of YOU. and not just with a big rod to fill You but You need some good support. Wish i could give you a hug and a hand to hold while you walk on the beech. Be still and know that you are not alone and have the Devine with you.
    Peace N Love

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    1. Thanks Sindee. It’s never been my luck in life to really truly be cared for by another human being. I mean I’ve had people be extraordinarily kind to me and help me in life, but I mean like to have my own person, even if I have to share them. But you know. Someone around me that really cares. My grandmother is the only one that comes to mind and that was only as adults. And she left me too early too.

      It does feel more lonely, but also not like crazy bad. Just like making my need to find a good community much stronger.

      But thanks. Yea. I’m on the edge of fear. But I think that has more to do with being here in the big city alone maybe. I won’t give in to it. Better to retry to remain fully aware with the resources we would use to be in fear. Right? Makes sense, hard to do sometimes.

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      1. indeed hard to do most times especially, when we are without that caring partner. i get that feeling as it is what i am dealing with. Quite different then your position but i long for that loving and caring touch.
        Hang in there enjoy the girls when you get back
        as always Peace N Love

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  2. Okay then um…good luck orgasiming😜 ?? What the hell!!! Is arron really a guy? He’ll be kicking himself later in life for sure! I’m married and half a world away but the thought of you wanting sex still excites me ha ha🤔😭

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    1. Lol. Thanks❣️

      I was thinking the exact same thing. Like dude. Let it all go for 20 minutes so we can have some fun. But he was just impossible to talk to.

      I took him home already. It seemed better for everyone. But definitely his loss. My pussy may not be nubile and aesthetic enough for playboy but I’m in it for both of us to win it. Know what I mean? Lol

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          1. This is fun , talking about how nubile your pussy is….. hang on that sounds creapy when I say it! Someone said to me recently that we have to be happy with what we have been dealt for inner peace.
            Love you (and your pussy)👄❤

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