So tired

I’m so tired. So tired of being the responsible one. So tired of being the strong one. Just fucking tired of holding it all together, by scraps and pieces.

And I know my life probably would and could theoretically be easier with a partner. I don’t know about the dynamics anymore. I don’t know what my deepest needs are exactly. But they definitely just don’t revolve around money. I mean, obviously for responsibility and my children no one that would hurt me or them in any way.

But right now you know I really feel it’s all about me. I am sick of doing things out of a sense of unhappy obligation or sense of desperate need. I want to take care of my kids because they need me and I love them. Nothing else. I want peace in my life. I want to feel good about myself and who I am. Who I truly am.

And right now I’m thinking I don’t need a partner. I have too much going on to look for love, too much possible mobility.

Life is bizarre. I just try to hold on and enjoy the ride. You know? But this is one hell of a bumpy ass life and God I could use a real break. A real fucking miracle.

But I know I’m not alone right now. The world seems to be in chaos. Can we all just take a breath and maybe even take a knee and….. (whatever that ending should be).

Guess we are all tired. 😔

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

7 thoughts on “So tired”

  1. From the news reports we see , from our small nation in a big brown land down under , america does seem to be under siege! Your drama filled days along with your nations riots , covid deaths and divided leaders make my home seem like paradise! I mean all we have are poisionous snakes and spiders , man eating sharks , giant crocodiles , floods , bush fires , cyclones , droughts , drop bears and worst of all….invadeing Kiwi’s! Just joking , australia’s not that bad and kiwi’s are ok once they learn how to say 6.
    A few aussie only references you’ll be scratching your head over as I try a put a smile on yer dial😆

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    1. You got that right. So scratching my head. Yea. Australia seems like no joke as far as wildlife coexisting with humans. You’re obviously outnumbered. Right? Plus the natural disasters, which except for the fire last year is news to me actually.

      Isn’t a kiwi a bird? What happens when they learn to say 6? I’m so confused. Lol. Is that even googlable? 🤣


      1. Ha ha ha… yep kiwi is a bird but it’s also a slang term for all New Zealanders. A lot of Kiwi’s come to live and work in Oz so we hear their accent a lot…. 6 always sounds like ‘sex’ bro. In Oz we’re mates and in NZ they’re bro’s😃.
        My city , brisbane ,has gone into total lockdown today for 3 days because we had 1 person with covid…… yes 1.
        The thing about our wildlife is that as long as you don’t walk through bush in bare feet or put your hand down dark holes or swim in northern creeks we can walk around freely. Better than bears or cougars that will chase you down. …Well except for ‘drop bears’ ! You never know when one of those will drop on you🤔

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        1. Drop bears? No. What about snakes? Don’t you have some other killer spiders that are quite common. I mean the stories about your cohabitation with nature is wild. You literally had your own version of crocodile dundee. Right mate?

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          1. Any true ozzie will tell you drop bears are the most danderous… but don’t listen to any of us , we like to fool foriegners😉. We have more poisioness things than any other country which we’re quietly proud of but we can camp anywhere in the bush without fear as long as we stay aware. Like don’t even go close to creeks up north or the crocks might get you.
            In the city…I haven’t seen a snake or danderous spider for years. Also those animals rarely chase you so just stand still and they slither away.
            Oh and yes , crocodile dundee could well be a true depiction of the ‘teritory.’
            A northern state where dundee was about… they really are rough and crazy up there. Luv ya girlie , yous ar a good sheila. Avagoodweekend😊

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