It’s another beautiful day. A great day to find out my mother’s boyfriend E found her power of attorney but no will. The power of attorney is from 7 years ago during a time my mother and I were not getting along all that well. We rarely saw each other or talked. I had 3 kids, the youngest being 1, and I was commuting both other girls to school, at completely different times, so I was busy.
She designated E on her primary care directive and then my moms cousins and her son. I can believe the first two, at the time my mom and “aunt”, (technically second cousin) got along. But since then things have changed drastically. She hated that woman. But I’m not even listed on it. Jeezus.
And no will has been found so as far as all is concerned I don’t seem to exist. It hurts. Not my moms actions because I guess I can understand how she felt then, but with everyone acting like I don’t matter at all, it’s hard.
I don’t have the money to hire attorneys, even though it was recommended to me to do so. But if I’m losing my house and needing to move I just can’t do it. I need to save my money and there is no guarantee anyone will make money beyond the attorneys, when you hire one. I don’t dislike or distrust attorneys. I just try to live my life so as to not need them too much.
The only saving grace may be if she noted me as the designary of her accounts with the institutions themself. But I’m not even sure honestly and I will check eventually after I get the death certificate but I’m not holding my breath. Whatever she wanted is fine with me, but I genuinely have the feeling she wouldn’t have wanted anything that is happening now to transpire.
Well. I need to go pick up a copy of this paperwork if he will even give it to me. He is just being such a dick with me.
My dad and I seem to agree that if he didn’t kill her intentionally he killed her by complete negligence, he should have taken her to the hospital or called 911 sooner. Like the day before when she was unresponsive and falling out of the bed. But he keeps changing his story. He has been so sketchy. But, you know what, whatever, it’s fine.
I really just wanted to know what happened to her and now I don’t have the legal right to order an autopsy. It’s fine. It won’t bring her back anyway but I’m feeling absolutely no closure. None! But I have a few more days here, so I guess I’ll just make the most of it. I’d lose money if I left early as everything was prepaid. I’m trying so hard to stay positive, at least the sun and the ocean and Aaron are here to keep me company during this extraordinarily difficult time.
Maybe once I’m home with the girls I can try to put this all behind me and just forget about everyone and everything that’s happened. Except my mom, I’m at least glad we were in a good place when she died. I’m truly very happy about that.