I think I’ve said this before. But I really wonder about myself sometimes.
I lasted less than 24 hours on FetLife and changed my mind. It was just so overwhelming. Note to self. In the future do either submissive or Domina. It was way too much switching and it was overloading my circuitry.
The flattering part is seeing the thirst. But dominants are really, truly, deeply not my thing. They don’t yield and they don’t listen, at least not most. And I don’t care to repeat myself or answer dumb questions. A lot of submissive men, the well trained and real ones, will give proper introductions: say something very flattering, tell you about themselves and ask something precise. They try to entice. That’s what I need. As it is I’m a huge flight risk anyway.
Well….. best case scenario I somehow, someway, find and fall in love with a good, decent man that is submissive enough and then maybe he will indulge me. Do I need all those games? No. I really just need to feel loved, deeply understood, a strong bond and truly adored beyond measure.
But honestly…… right now I’m just gonna do nothing about getting laid.
I’ll get my ass exercising, which will improve my slump. And focus on the big picture. Maybe I’ll make a game of it. See how long I can not have sex before I go crazy or become a major pent up bitch. No. That’s not me either. But sex does relieve a lot of stress and improve my mood greatly.
I just don’t have the stamina for the online dating thing. It’s a huge nuisance. And how am I supposed to really judge someone based on a few photos and blurbs? A few texts back and forth. I don’t have a problem dismissing people, nicely. But all this is just work. I may go on again just looking for a submissive but I doubt it. So many small penises.
You know…….working that hard to build up to possibly wanting to get laid by some random guy I know tidbits about is just insane to me. But I get that this is how it’s now done and many people succeed at it.
Count me out.
And to clarify, absolutely no one is taming me, ever. I’d rather be single the rest of my life and invest in more sex toys and myself than spend any more time trying to decipher idiot dominant men. But there were quite a few super cute young submissives just foaming at the mouth. That was pretty adorable. Their awe was absolutely palpable.
See what I do next. Not like I know.🤷🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️