But I’m not trying all that hard. I am on FetLife, but I’m a contradiction.
On a highly sexual website I have a very PG picture of just my face. And I don’t have the time or desire to put in the energy to work on my profile and get new sexy pictures up.
So I’m an enigma I guess.
I claim to want something I really don’t want to work towards all that much. So then how much do I really want it? Lol
I guess I put in all that work on the dating app and it burnt me out a bit. And now I’m feeling very blah about it.
Because realistically what I want is hard to find. I want…..
a lover that I am sexually compatible with and enjoy spending time. Someone who has a schedule that can accommodate my limited availability. Who has a nice clean and comfortable home where I can come hang out at my discretion Sunday-Tuesday, when my kids are gone.
Someone who I enjoy spending time with and will be active and fun when we aren’t having sex and has a healthy lifestyle or can at least happily fake it for two days.
See what I mean? Daunting. No?
And I hate settling. I can and I will probably have to at least a bit but right now….. I’m like nah….. whatever.
Brad mailed me my high powered vibrator. So…..now I have more sex toys than I know what to do with. Him also having given me all the toys he ever bought. So now I have a huge duffle bag of sex toys. Mostly for male torture; sounding toys, penis clamps, strap on.
Poor things just collecting dust. One day. One day.
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You want it clearly enough – you just want it the way you want it; nothing all that unusual about this. There are few women I know of who says to themselves, “Hmm… some dick would be nice right about now…” and literally go fuck the first guy they come across who shows interest; most aren’t going to do that even thought they know that they can. For a lot of women – and men, too – sex without “meaning” is bad sex and considered to be settling for less than what they want, which is also considered to be even worse sex.
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If I had any luck with one nights stands I’d be all over that. But I don’t. Never have. There does have to be either some very, VERY strong chemical attraction or feelings. Nothing I can do about it. Just gotta honor who I am and not who I wish I was.
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Totally understandable.
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Thanks for inspiring my blog today. ππ₯°π
I truly appreciate you!
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And I you…
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I remember a tshirt, most likely from Tshirthell.com, that said “Hopeless Romantic Seeks Filthy Whore”. For some reason I was thinking about this and smiling.
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that shirt is a laugh with much truth in it
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Right?
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OMG I need that!!
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https://www.tshirthell.com/funny-shirts/hopeless-romantic-seeks-filthy-whore
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Realistically though. Where would I wear it? The gym maybe when it reopens. They’d probably make me change.
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Stand next to the road and flash passing drivers? (family member cuts the grass in a Global warming is awesome shirt. The same family member exercises with a hung like a horse shirt)
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Lol
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You will find someone to complete you. Someone who will make you shine and glow
Peace N Love
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Well. That would be ideal. But if add that to the list it moves it from improbable to yea right? Lol
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it’s never imposable You will find the one who fills the special place in your heart
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From your keystrokes to reality….ππ½β€οΈ
Well. It feels good to think it could happen. One day. But….who knows when that day will be.
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