Back on Fetlife / horny karma (long)

Well…….I did it. I’m back on FetLife. The thing about FetLife because it isn’t actually a dating site, it’s a community forum for events and kinksters to meet, greet and share, is that you have to weed people out much more thoroughly than dating apps.

Because I’ve noted that the men on FetLife are either completely upfront and lay it all on the table or are duplicitous as fuck. By either telling you what they think you want to hear or just spouting pure lies to get what they want. Which is usually just a fix for their fetish craving. Fortunately it’s not a landslide on the idiot side. Just have to be much more cautious.

I have not linked my blog to Fet this time. I probably won’t do it. I did garner more readers that way but I realize it also gives a potential suitor an inside track to me: my mindset, my insecurities, my desires, my weaknesses.

I had one man read me like a book and psychologically rope me in with so much ease it was actually a bit scary. Fortunately he was harmless.

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Ugghhhhh

I am so damn horny. I don’t even understand why. May be my hormones. Because I literally just got a really great tactile “fix” and orgasmed nicely. But since then (Was that just Monday?) I’ve actually wanted it even more and exponentially so.

So much that I actually texted Brad last night and he made things so much worse by texting me all these sexual scenes and what he wanted to do to me and he even offered to come over. To which I obviously, well maybe not that obviously, said no. My kids were home though and I’m done with my sex in cars days. I’ll leave that for teenagers, hookers and people having affairs.

Look, I know I’m addicted to sex. I don’t have any problem admitting it. But I’m not a total idiot about it either. Well, don’t ask my mom’s opinion or maybe my psychologist. But seriously. I get tested. I try to have just one long term partner at a time and those relationships aren’t just about sex either.

I think right now I’m also craving emotional comfort and, instead of food or alcohol or some other go-to, I want sex. Desperately!! Yet not desperately enough to do something stupid. Not more so than texting Brad I guess.

Look, I just happen to really, really, like really, OMG really, love sex.

And there is still so much I haven’t done. And I so want to make love again, but that’s not something you can just go out and find somewhere, easily.

But for right now I should go to bed. Can’t masturbate.

I’ve never taken a cold shower but if this continues I may need one. I know brief exposure to cold temperature lowers testosterone levels some. But does it work for females? Lol

Last night I slept so shitty too. Not only super horny, but thinking about all the things that transpired in my 3 dates with this last bachelor.

God, I need to get out of my own head and calm my body down. Where’s hot yoga when I need it?

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I am pretty sure I didn’t do my prayer for the departed last month and I haven’t done it this month either and last night my daughter had an encounter in her room and today the TV flipped on by itself. Which means I should probably get on that. But I don’t really want to. I mean I do, but I’m also tired and just busy doing other stuff and I don’t know that my heart and mind would be fully in it.

But at the same time, if I manage to open a portal to let the departed go through then what do they care if my heart is fully in it or not. Right? Lol

That is one of the oddest karmic laws in life I haven’t quite understood.

If your intentions are good but something bad occurs in spite of them, people get hurt, damage occurs, what have you then the net output is negative. Wouldn’t that count as a mark against one?

And if ones intentions are bad and yet ones action or inaction helps someone greatly and they are truly grateful, does that count as a mark for one?

I don’t think it should. Right?

But I don’t understand those underpinnings.

Ugghhhh

I’m feeling a bit all over the place.

I should sleep.

Yea.

That’s what I need. Sleep.

Goodnight beautiful planet and all its many, varied, lovely inhabitants.

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Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

7 thoughts on “Back on Fetlife / horny karma (long)”

  1. “I know brief exposure to cold temperature lowers testosterone levels some. ”

    It just makes your testicles shrink up into your “cavities”. I strongly doubt that applies to you.
    As per the cold water, it increases certain circulatory functions, lymph, etc.

    Also, I would like to put an ad out:
    Wanted: Partner to re-enact most of Silence of The Lambs w/out the killing. Must like cold basements and men talking to themselves. Supply own lotion and baskets.

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  2. Ok, seriously, I am 100% Heterosexual. But the sight of 2 beautiful women (ESPECIALLY WITH HUGE BOOBS) eating pussy and ass – making eye contact. REALLY enjoying each other. This makes ME – absolutely CRAVE a huge blast of the best Straight-Drop CrackCocaine in Miami. Spend $1,000. The very second that I take the very first hit from the STEM – the most incredible, amazing, incomprehensible phenomenon occurs. I instantly and involuntarily become attracted to the opposite sex. Immediately I remove all clothing. NUDE – I OPEN all the curtains, turn the lights on – so anyone and everyone outside – can SEE into my home. They see EVERYTHING. I lay face down over the counter so that my SexySnowWhiteTail is arched up high. I squirt KY all over my Ass and shove my HUGE GLASS DILDO DEEP INTO my Naughty Tight Wet Ass. I continue taking hit after hit. I video myself. Then I call and order 2 hot male escorts to come to my place. To completely HUMILIATE me. Right in front of the window – I’ll be Sucking, Slobbering, and Gagging on a HUGE COCK – while another Massive cock absolutely pounds my gaping Whore Hole. Omg. WHEN I Am High On CRACK – I become the NASTIEST slut ever. Being #SpitRoasted is so hot. Getting dominated by 2 huge bodybuilding type guys. Shaven bodies – treating me like a worthless CRACKWHORE. I love it. The more degradation the better. Also, the better the COCAINE – the more DASTARDLY THE DEEDS are. My record so far is 7 complete strangers in ONE NIGHT. I simply drove a mile to a part of Fort Lauderdale Beach that is VERY CRUISEY…

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    1. I’m not sure if this is a joke. You just copy and paste this?

      But this used to happen to an ex of mine. Coke/meth made him do all kinds of freaky stuff.

      I mean. I was already fucking him in the ass, but he definitely seemed inclined to get the real thing then.

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