I am spectacular

I am magnificent

I am radiant

I am amazing

I am wonderful


And here is the greatest part of it all

Just….. because it is so


There is this love

This omnipotent, eternal, force of pure love

That I came from*

And will one day go back to

That surrounds me

Even when I can’t feel it

Even when I can’t see it

Even when I doubt it and myself

Even when I struggle

Even when I falter

It is there beaming its loving energy at me

Embracing me fully and completely

Unconditionally and irrevocably

And it sees my soul for what it truly is

And understands my human failures

My human travesties

My human condition

Better than I ever could myself

And knows that that is all just part of the show here

It is part of the saga of this storyline

Set in this time and place with this body and these circumstances

But it isn’t the real me

It is only an illusion

That will fade into nothingness

Just as it was before I was put here

So it shall be again when I leave

And I don’t have to take it all on

The games

The pain

The hardships

I don’t have to let the transient time I have here blind me to what really matters

And what I’m here to achieve

Which to me is the knowledge and strength of my spirit to get back home

I am here to ignite and fuel the bond of my soul to Divinity from this end

And in that sense

Of being part of such a beautiful design and creation

I am so much more than I’ve ever been taught to believe I am

And I really don’t even have to truly believe it for it to be true

I just have to get out of my own way enough to let my heart and soul guide me

Back to where I belong, back to who I truly am.


*That we all come from.


Do I believe this is true for everyone?

Yes, yes I do.

But, unfortunately some people have squelched their hearts and souls down to such an extent that they would be hard pressed to even locate the soft, sweet voices. All in the name of things that only matter here on this small realm. Things that corrupt. Things that inhibit the connection to Divinity. Things that darken the soul.

So my quest remains to keep looking for the signs that lead me to my already established and cemented for eternity communal space of blessedness.

And maybe I can do so without all the anxiety, the fears, the worries, and doubts, the voices that tell me I’m not enough and I never will be. Because that is all wrong. I am always enough, just as I am, as a fragile and fallible human holding a spark of the divine.

And I truly hope we may we all be so lucky to find our own way back to the true beauty of our souls❣️


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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