Well…..here we go

So…..I went on my first date today. We met at a coffee shop with outdoor seating. At one point I was laughing so hard I had to cover my mouth. So, that’s a great sign. He is handsome, financially stable, believes in holistic health and has kids, 3 boys. So very Brady Bunchy, but his are older.

I was so nervous before the date I almost considered cancelling. I’m glad I didn’t.

He is cooking me dinner Sunday. I can’t remember the last time someone cooked me dinner. I’m really looking forward to it. Let’s see where this goes.

But I have got to get started on my eBay clients stuff and I am picking up a huge g-scale train collection from another client this week. Which means I won’t be able to take on any more clients this year or work on my own things; not complaining though. Grateful!

I had an interview for a part time admin job I cancelled. Well actually I thought I had emailed to cancel and it turns out I emailed the wrong person, so as far as they know I flaked. Which is not like me, but I didn’t want to explain myself after the fact, for a job I didn’t even want to begin with.

I really just can’t commit to something like that right now and I won’t let them expend the time and money to train me, to potentially leave 9 months from now. I could apply to temp positions but I have enough work to keep me busy right now.

I was only applying to jobs because I wanted to keep qualifying for unemployment on the weeks I don’t have eBay income. Which is maybe half the month now. I tend to have a couple good weeks and then I’ll have a slump; with no sales weeks.

It’s such a beautiful fall day out, crisp and sunny. Supposed to rain starting tomorrow. So I’m gonna go enjoy the sun for a bit before my meeting with my daughters psychologist.

Breathing it all in, staying focused on what I can control, enjoying the most I can.

Tomorrow is slated for Christmas tree chopping. Yay!!! πŸŽ„πŸŽ„πŸŽ„πŸŽ„


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

14 thoughts on “Well…..here we go”

    1. Well. It still makes me anxious, but I suppose that isn’t a bad thing. I don’t particularly enjoy putting myself out there; feeling vulnerable.

      But also……who cares and why not?

      It’s all part of the drama of life and nothing worthwhile can be had without risk. Right?

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      1. No one likes feeling vulnerable but it’s feeling that way that also makes us feel good about things. And, yeah – if you venture or risk nothing, you gain nothing and so many of us let our fears of being vulnerable make us unnecessarily foolish and, as such, forces us to miss out on the things that we know, truthfully, that we don’t want to miss out on.

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      2. I happen to have learned to like feeling vulnerable; it makes me feel alive and it’s pretty exciting and I’ve been around the block so many times that I don’t even really think about how “bad” being vulnerable can be, that and I feel that if I can’t deal with being vulnerable, there’s something very, very wrong with me that I have some reason not to be able to enjoy a part of what it means to be alive and being able to interact with other people. It’s not like I’ve not gotten hurt but that was the last time and, yeah, being okay with being vulnerable might just get me hurt again… but that’s life and I’m not one to dwell on the past so much because it’s counterproductive and a big stealer of future joys.

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