And maybe a side hussle of helping people with gut issues and depression as well.
I mean if anyone would think to ordain me a saint I think those would be my calling cards, but currently no one is thinking that at all, anywhere, like not a soul. Lol
Plus I still have road left ahead of me. Maybe I’ll make some more sharp turns on my path and who knows what I could learn and where I could end up?
I mean, I really don’t need to be emblazoned in history. I don’t need to be commemorated. I don’t need accolades and books written about me. But I would like to leave a positive mark on the world, if I can; in some meaningful way.
But I don’t think I’m much use to anyone without getting my own needs met and being a true example of my own ideology.
I’m not sure why I even have to explain that I have sexual needs. And I’m definitely not going to apologize for it. What I’m feeling is a basic human need like food, water, air, sleep.
A person can supercede this need I suppose but why expend that energy and why deprive oneself that joy? Life is case by case of course, but I think being celibate is a waste of the privilege we get to enjoy life.
Most things in life aren’t all that fun, frivolous and joyful. We have meer moments of bliss. Why limit those?
I suppose I sound very hedonistic right now. And truthfully I’m not knocking hedonism at all. There is a place for enjoying life through our senses. There is a real need and desire for sensuality, for tactile affection, for getting to know and enjoy our bodies.
We just all have to figure out our own win/wins for that in life.
I should be able to enjoy sex and be careful and safe.
Don’t mind me.
I think this is just me talking myself up here. Trying to get it in my head that I can put myself out there. Like cheering myself on sort of thing.
I mean…..someone has to. Right?