So there is a way to retrain your eyes to 20/20 vision. This works for nearsighted people and even astigmatism. But…..it isn’t easy or fast. It takes discipline, determination and perseverance.
In the same vein, one can retrain their mind to be ones servant and not ones master. In my case I would like to train it to be a place of peace, acceptance, grace, acute awareness and calculated action in the spirit of love; instead of the mad hatter, hamster wheel race full of dread that it can be sometimes.
But I was thinking last night; just as a retraining of the eyes takes years of constant small improvement towards the goal, so I should see enlightenment.
Small gradual steps towards my goal are at least a better mode of operation than what I have going on. The hit and miss, one step forward two steps back, never quite sure where I am going method. It’s fun, but I’m guessing not as productive as it could be.
What I could look at is using the same training for the eyes.
To train your eyes, you set aside 30 minutes a day to sit quietly and calmly. On the opposite wall, not too extremely far facing one, you put a picture of something that you can see, but not very well. Then you close your eyes for a minute or so and envision something with your eyes closed.
You should be able to see it perfectly. We all have 20/20 vision with our eyes closed. Once you have that image (of whatever, whoever) very clear open your eyes calmly and look at the picture you set across the room from you. For a flash of a second it should be clearly visible.
If not, then move the picture closer, make it bigger, and/or keep practicing. Eventually, you will see it perfectly clear for a fraction of a moment. Then you build on that. Trying to keep your eyes very relaxed, as if your eyes were still closed. Very, very slowly over the course of days and months your time increases and your muscles relax enough for you to retain your good vision longer and longer.
Hard, but free and all you need is effort and consistency.
So can’t I apply those same principals to Nirvana? I know what it feels like, to feel full of love. If I close my eyes and let go of everything, I can let it encompass me. So then, all I have to do is open my eyes and keep that feeling going. Keep that peace.
With my finances in upheaval and my future uncertain, and not being able to make any plans or commitments……well…..what better thing do I have to do right now?
I’ve been wanting this my entire life. If not now when?
The perfect storm of pandemic/quarantines, lack of too much work, and a lot of time on my hands seems to be a good time and is something to do with myself that will give purpose and meaning to the madness.
We shall see, because my intentions are good but my commitment wavers. Lol