I’m all over the place

with my sexual fantasies. And Brad is in a lot of them. Not the submissive ones because he was a horrible submissive, unless you count the few times he played along, at the beginning of our relationship. He was great then. Too bad that was all an act.

In reality he was more the Dominant and being with him wrecked my self esteem terribly. It was probably a combination of things, but whether he knew it or not, triggering my sexual abuse trauma was never fun and a lot for me emotionally.


I just bought a new vibrator. It’s corded, so it never loses power and I don’t have to worry about always having batteries. The usb charge ones are never strong enough for me. So I went for the jackhammer version. Te he he.

I just found out today that in spanish dildos are called “consolators”. I was joking with my mom they should be called “don’t disappoint” instead.

For at least the last 6 months Brad wasn’t able to maintain an erection with me. Now this could be his health, our relationship, or where he was emotionally/mentally. He didn’t know and didn’t seem to care. And I have no idea and honestly I didn’t really care either. I was absolutely fine with playing around and using my vibrator to cum. It works. And with his hands on me and him telling me dirty stories it was even better. I had zero complaints.

But I am looking forward to making love and maybe having someone fit enough to try the Kama Sutra positions with. Not that I can even do them all. But still. Cross off as many as possible.

We can achieve so much pleasure in life; food, music, our senses, our emotions, our loves and passions and of course sex.

I don’t think I could ever be permanently abstinent. Not gonna happen. Nope, never, can’t see it.


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

9 thoughts on “I’m all over the place”

  1. wish i could be your fantasy as you are mine. dreaming of your wonderful thighs squeezing my head after i have rubbed and teased your thighs and inner thighs, i can b e so oral and definitely submissive
    Ah but that;s my dream not yours
    Peace N Love

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          1. i would start with You laying on your back and some warm massage oil (vanilla) . First your feet i would massage and rub your feet each one giving them special attention. gently massaging each toe. and then gentle kisses as i slowly work up both calves at once and them each one gets a good rubbing also gentle kisses as i move up to your thighs. rubbing and gentle kisses and then massaging your love round bottom. i can be such a good ass kisser. (after all i am submissive). then your back and shoulders. then your arms and fingers. kissing each finger and seductively sucking on each one. then moving your long beautiful hair to one side slowly and tenderly kissing your neck and behind your ears and whispering to You how beautiful and wonderful i think You are, You roll over and i give your amble beautiful breast some loving and attention with my hands , lips and tongue. i slip one hand down and rub your sweet inner thighs brushing over your vagina. and slowly working my lips to down your stomach stopping to lick around and in your belly button. i now start kissing your inner thighs and move slowly to licking and kissing your sweet lips. your hands are rubbing thru my hair as i kiss and tease your sweet lips and move onto to your clitoris. teasing and kissing until i wrap both of lips around it and suck it in my mouth as my tongue flickers it . i continue to give you pleasure by ribbing your thighs and kissing and licking away. You feel and enjoy my touch knowing i want nothing from you but to please you and hear your moans and cries of pleasure. only stopping when you push me away but then you grab me and pull me onto your chest and we just lay and glow in the after glow. Me with your wonderful taste all over my face \. Me enjoying just being in your presence grateful that you let me worship and enjoy your sweet tasting vagina,

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