Getting closer to dream sex

I had a dream Melania Trump and I became gym partners. Her husband (in my dream) was Alex Baldwin. And he was complaining to a small group of us at a get-together about their marriage issue; lack of sex. He brought out a monthly calendar that had 17 days shaded. He said those were the days he got guaranteed sex.

We all laughed at him. 17 days a month is more than enough. “We should all be so lucky” I told him.

Then I was starting to make out with my ex and I went to unzip his pants and he turned into a tall, thin dirty blond that I was in a relationship with (in my dream), I think married to. I was kissing and caressing her and she was not into it. I asked her what the problem was and she said she wasn’t horny.

I told her this wasn’t about just sex. It was about me wanting to touch her, feel her, be close to her and show her my affection.

It was close to sex but not close enough and I didn’t realize I was dreaming to then be able to take control over it.

But Melania and I agreed I should try to get my butt to the gym at 5am every day, except last time I tried that (IRL) the kiddos complained that I was grouchy and tired all the time. It was only a week in though but they weren’t wrong.


Raining today.

I texted Brad. My car was making a funny noise. Sure enough he was able to pinpoint the issue by me just describing the noise and him asking a few questions. He is such an idiot savant when it comes to mechanics.

But now he wants to talk more. He apologized again and seemed to be crying on the phone when he did so. But I’m not moved by it. It’s all just words.

Would I like to use his washing machine and have sex? Yes, yes I would. But is it worth it? No, I’m not sure it is. Do I miss him? Sure. I miss my friend. But no friend treats me like he did and remains a friend.

So we are at an impasse. I’ve walked away from harder relationships before. But……

Always a but……

Who knows?

(Me. I suppose. I should know. I don’t is the thing. I really don’t.)

I think this is just the part in the movie where the protagonist is still a bit sad sometimes. But that seems easy to be in the circumstances of the world at present. πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ


God, could I use some great sex in my life right now. Maybe I’ll go to the gym today. The issue is that you have to reserve a spot. You can’t just show up. And they are limited to specific times and only a certain amount of people can get in each slot.


I’ve been looking at the pandemic closely. Sweden just spiked to its highest numbers yet but the deaths have stayed very low. However their hospitals are getting full again.

China built that massive pandemic hospital in two weeks, wasn’t it? But I have zero aspirations for anything like that here. No matter who wins this election. But it seems to be that with care most people aren’t dying anymore. The cases aren’t as severe. They are just much more plentiful.

But who wants to end up in the hospital? Alone? On a ventilator? Yuck. No one. Not a soul.

School starts here in a few minutes. Enjoy your day❣️


Been running for so long -This song is from the Peanut Butter Falcon movie. It’s a great movie if you haven’t seen it yet.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

7 thoughts on “Getting closer to dream sex”

    1. Not gonna happen. I can make a million excuses as to why I am not having sex right now. But honestly as much as I want it I don’t want to put in the effort to make it happen.

      It’s something I seem to really want in my mind and not so much in reality I think.

      And that’s fine for now. Truly.


        1. Yo meet a guy I have to get all dolled up. Then there has to be some attraction, which is rare for me. Then I have to get mostly naked, which I’m not all that comfortable with right now. Then I cant orgasm via penetration alone. I need the help of my vibrator, which is just another awkward conversation to have with a stranger.

          One night stands are usually horrendous. I don’t drink so I don’t go to bars.

          Even when I go to sex clubs it’s not to have sex. It’s just to watch. I like being in relationships. I like the comfort of it.

          My fuck um and leave um days are far behind me.

          Now if I could orgasm through penetration alone or had someone on stand by to sleep with, then it would be a green light all the way. But I don’t. Sooo….it’s fine.

          I’m sitting here doing my kegels just waiting.

          It’s fine. I can take a break. Not the end of the world.

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