I remember at the buddhist retreat taking a long hike to the river; alone, far from anyone, with no cell phone, no pepper spray for bears or long boots to deter snakes bites.

I was scared. Every step down to the river I was scared. And when I finally got there I felt such deep elation at having accomplished it. Because every step I took I had wanted to talk myself back to safety, back to people, back to what I knew. But I pushed myself on. And that feeling of success is still palpable to me now.

The walk back to the retreat I wasn’t scared and it went by so much quicker. It was light-hearted and happy.

And while that was a huge lesson and one I admire to this day, it isn’t how I want to live my life.

I want to live my life unafraid. Truly unafraid. Wide awake and paying attention, genuine, open, caring and unafraid.

How do you do something that terrifies you without being terrified?

I guess you start by breathing and reminding yourself

You’ve got this.

Everything is fine

Everything will be fine

What’s the worst that can happen

And so what?

Life isn’t worth living afraid

It’s only worth living

If you’re truly allowing yourself to live it

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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