I went to see my neighbor Jan. I really appreciate her. She’s a great person. I like bouncing spiritual stuff off of her. She’s also a great walking partner and I enjoy her healing sessions. Today was my second one with her. And I didn’t snore this time.
But I did get a sense of having to vomit. Which is odd since I hadn’t eaten for hours beforehand. It luckily passed. After the sessions she pulled 3 tarot cards. Past, present, future.
The first two were about expressing my thoughts and emotions, through talking and writing. The last was about eternal love. That’s hopeful.
She also said my third chakra (which is at the vocal cords) had some issues. The others were fine. Which is funny because that is the one and only chakra I always focus my healing directly on. Which means I’m spot on with the intrinsic knowledge but it stills needs work.
Now the liver is the organ of anger. So all these things point to me having to express myself more. And all points lead to one obvious conclusion.
I am angry!
But the issue is…..
I always try to stay positive. I try to be grateful for the many blessings I have. I try not to take anything for granted. I try to be hopeful and uplift myself and others.
All this repressed anger and bottled up emotion seem to be boiling over and I have to be honest with myself about this.
And I don’t think I need a Nancy Kerrigan day as much as I need a total and complete bitch fest. To just let myself complain and vent and let out my deep frustrations. A time to just let myself purge all these feelings, in a safe space of absolutely no judgement.
I just took a heavy dose of THC. Pulled out the vibrator. Turned on some tunes. Maybe tonight. Maybe now tonight. But I know it’s gotta be soon.
Unleashing this will hopefully help with my liver, unclog the chakra and get myself back to a more homeostatic level; emotionally, physically, mentally.
And although I truly hate complaining, even more than hearing people complain. I can make exceptions once in a while.
After all, every dam has a breaking point and I don’t want to reach mine. Better to let off steam and let myself enjoy it. Most people really seem to enjoy complaining. So why not? Right?
I’m not going to torture anyone with my complaints, except you maybe.