My liver has been smarting quite a bit. And now a new pain has started up, which I can pinpoint to the area of my descending colon. Not sure what that’s about. The doctor doesn’t seem concerned. My blood count looked fine. She recommended some sugar pills. These Boron pellets while supposedly targeted to specific areas have never worked for me.
But I’m willing to try it, just so we can cross it off the list. I know a placebo can work even when people know they’re taking it. The mind is such a powerful thing but I’ve been dealing with this issue for over a decade now, so my body has a huge head start.
I’ve even, recently considered letting them do the exploratory surgery except I have bare bone insurance now. Maybe I’ll just go to a body talker. So they can theoretically tell me what is wrong without having to cut me open. I’m not sure how well that works but I’m entering the desperate phase. Continuous pain is just a rancid way to live.
Maybe someone adept at muscle testing? Theoretically I should be able to do it on myself. I guess no time like the present to start practicing.
How do you very effectively kill a group while keeping your hands clean of it? You kill it from within: you infect its ideals, you corrupt trust, you create extreme chaos. That’s what I feel is happening to the political system in the US right now.
I’m not saying it was perfect. I’m not saying it wasn’t based on a hypocrisy to begin with. But in spirit it was well thought out: the pursuit of happiness, all created equal, etc. etc. The Constitution and Declaration of Independence are still great.
My hope is that we can actually get to where it is an actuality for every citizen to have true freedom and equality. But right now we have to hold on for dear life because the very leader of our country is putting our political system on its end. Because once you put doubts, very serious doubts into the mechanics of the system itself, how do you recover from that?
He might think he’s helping himself, but at what cost? At what cost to the very fabric that holds this country together?
That worries me. I always said “give the man his 4 years, as long as he doesn’t take us to war or destroy our economy, I’m fine with it”. That’s how this thing goes, but destroying the very foundation of our political system seems much worse even. How do we come back from this kind of threat? Especially when it comes from within? When it comes from the very top?
I don’t know. I truly don’t. I’m just hoping to God we come out of this ok. This year is turning out to be quite the spectacle. Isn’t it?