I’m seeing a lot of candida. Last cleanse I saw very little, but I was completely gluten free then. Unfortunately, my resolve has waned with this pandemic and I’ve had 10 times the gluten in the last 6 months that I had in the 4 years prior. Which may also explain my weight gain.
My muscles are still sore from my workout Wednesday. In fact they are so sore today I can barely move my arms. Which makes little sense. That I should have so much lactic acid build-up 4 days later. It’s like my body was in shock for the first two days after and now it’s like “oh hey yea, I remember how to break down and rebuild muscle”.
So I was thinking…..what kind of example am I setting for my children that I won’t date at my current weight? I know all the pitfalls. I know the work involved. My weight does not determine my value as a person. It does not determine the depth of my heart or strength of my soul. It does not determine my worthiness for love.
Maybe that seems an odd reason to start dating, but my weight is a very bad reason to not start. The pandemic is a better reason not to date. So I need to reevaluate my priorities and reasoning more. Who knows? Maybe the added weight makes me more “accessible” to nice guys. I’m no expert on this but I was told before that my pictures were too good and professional looking and it made me seem like a catfish. So there is that?
But last time I dated it felt like a part time job and while most dates were fun, overall it was a bit exhausting.
Suppose I need to know what I’m looking for. But….. I myself don’t really know. I’d settle for a fun lover I enjoy talking to and hanging out with. But I won’t complain to be presented with more. Lol
More thought must be given to this. One of the wellness centers I go to is having a singles mixer. That may be fun or maybe not, but it will be a good way to stretch my dating muscles and test the waters. Maybe.