Domme, de Domme Domme

Brad and I were discussing our “relationship” over dinner. I said “I still don’t think you understand how this works”. To which he says “I think you’re right. Tell me again.”

And I laid it all out:

“I do and say as I please. You, however, must watch what you say and do.”

He sneered back at me telling me how he starts to get resentful of that and then it boils over and we break up. Then he misses me so much he is willing to do whatever I say.

Which isn’t really true. He is “willing to put up with me” is what he means. He rarely actually does what I say.

And here we are. I don’t think he realizes how resentful I am of him. I invested all this time and energy and emotion. I tried to help him sort out his life and instead watched it get so much worse due to his complete inability to make good decisions and keep moving forward in life. Let alone all his empty promises to me.

It’s fine. But this was the last lesson I needed on trying to (help)/fix a man. From this point forward I know I want a man that either A) has his shit together or B) actually listens and is willing to be the beta to my alpha. Preferably both of course. Why not?

Because, truthfully, even if a man has his shit together and knows what he wants I still expect him to defer to me in the relationship. That is how I roll and it is a non-negotiable. And honestly I’m willing to forge it alone, and just have fun when and where I can, than be miserable trying to become someone I’m not or fit in some little box of who I’m expected to be. Yuck!

I definitely am missing my Domme days, my Domme attire, my Domme persona. But she’ll be back. I just have to lick my wounds for a second and find my bearings again.

And then we shall see who I find that is truly the right fit for me. 🤤⛓️🤤⛓️🤤

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

9 thoughts on “Domme, de Domme Domme”

  1. hmm never thought about you as a Domme, but i bet you did it well. When i was with Mistress Kate and Sir there was never any real BDSM or Domme wear. It is all about knowing each other communicating and enjoying life. i am naturally submissive and i think that is what ultimately caused my divorce as She was not an Alpha. hopefully, you will be who you are and living in Utopia.

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      1. i did write a post on my time with Her and Her Hubby https://sindeejson.wordpress.com/2020/08/29/good-times-mistress-kate/
        She lives a very Vanilla lifestyle and has only allowed be to publicly share what i posted. i had a wonderful time was nude for most of the time and served them as they wished. It was His first experience with a male and with having a sub. Although they live a vanila lifestyle it is very much a FLR that they have. She was a pro Domme before they met .

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      2. i spent a week serving them and enjoying the times. We have a week scheduled for November. She’s retired and he’s 10 years younger still working . He was on vacation and when i go visit next i get to be en fem during our indoor times. Because of the community they live in is very vanilla . They have a cabin in the Northern woods of Wisconsin where we spent some time i might be able to be en fem there. Only time will tell.

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    1. No. It’s not just about BDSM. I thoroughly enjoy playing but the actuality, the dynamics of the relationship has to be deference to me. In the bedroom I can happily concede power, but definitely not outside of it. It isn’t me. It I’ll nevevr me. I am happy in a dynamic where I ultimately decide most things. But I can admit that maybe I’ve just never been in a relationship with a man I found intelligent enough, capable enough and that I trusted enough to depend on to make decisions. That could be. Never say never I guess. Who knows?

      But as far as Brad. He is in so much physical pain on the door basis. I mean at this point he can barely walk. So torturing him is out of the equation.

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