Jesus’ Real Batrayal

I was sitting wondering what Jesus would say if he was brought back to earth today in human form. 2000+ years after he sacrificed himself in the name of human salvation.

I wonder if he was given the chance to go back to his time, he would choose differently. I venture to say he would when he could see how people use his name to propel hatred, fear, intolerance, violence and so much more against each other; to see the hypocrisy of people that claim to follow his words, his spirit, and the breath and essence of his teachings.

It is an affront of the most heart breaking nature and a complete mockery of the infinite love, compassion for all, and life of service and self-sacrifice that he encapsulated.

I don’t see any other way to see what Christian and Christ based religions have done with Jesus’ beautiful teachings and ultimate sacrifice. I can’t help but shake my head at all of it. We are not deserving. Not now, probably not then, and while I can’t speak to the future and want to have faith. Jeezus! How long does it fucking take?


I guess I’m just having a hard time believing in the goodness of humanity.

But then I go back to one of my original thoughts.

If there is always a balance of good and evil in this world than maybe we are exactly where we need to be and I need not concern myself with the soul of humanity and the future of the planet. I almost feel like there has to be some drama in life. All movies need some kind of villain or tension/distress in the story. Right?

Do we get a happy ending? Do we get any kind of utopia?

Is the search only found within?


I guess in my own mind the thing is that I hate the lies more than I hate the evil. Lies to me are worse than evil. Which sounds extreme maybe. But I prefer to be able to see the world exactly the way it is; to understand what is truly going on. I’d rather see the pussie, festering soul of humanity than the pretty facade. I’d rather feel the pain of it all than be lulled and seduced by beautiful illusions.

But that doesn’t seem to be most people. Most people seem to be perfectly fine living lies they tell themselves and/or the world. In fact most people seem to be trying very desperately to bury their head further into their own unhappy little rabbit holes.


I just need to move my focus inward. I don’t think I’ll ever fully understand human nature and humanity. Which makes sense I guess. Hard enough understanding myself some days.


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

8 thoughts on “Jesus’ Real Batrayal”

    1. “I’d like to see the world through my own eyes”. Indeed.

      I believe we can find utopia without having to hide ourselves away. But it’s probably one of the most difficult quests there is in this life. Finding true inner peace, happiness, hope and living a life of truly following ones ideals and moral compass and not of hypocrisy, lies, illusions, justifications, and self delusion most people live in. Because we aren’t taught correctly, the things that are of true value to our lives and souls. We aren’t modeled living spiritually guided and mindfully.

      There is enough information out there to achieve it, but it’s hard to go against the grain and all you think you know.

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    1. I can say that sometimes we go looking for it too though, unwittingly. We sometimes create or seek our circumstances, even inadvertently.

      I remember I used to know this one salesman at a furniture store I worked at. He was a nice guy, but he was also cheating on his wife and was a slick talker. He moved through life like he was going to take what he felt was rightfully his, and he carried what I like to call “false charm”. And boy did life smack him around a lot. He never understood any of it and I couldn’t help but feel a mixture of pity and awe at how fate just seemed to pummel him around so much. Circumstances beyond his control were always trying to teach him harsh lessons. I don’t think he ever learned anything from any of it.

      Once we change ourselves inside. Once we become grounded and open up spiritually, everything else changes too. I’m not saying there won’t be haters. But I think when we try to see everything as a lesson and everyone as part of ourselves and our divine journey. Then we realize maybe we have unlimited cheeks with which to get kisses and/or slaps on. Lol


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