I think I’m finally getting it

I don’t mean life.

I mean living it.

Life will always surprise you. Maybe that’s what it’s meant to do.

Living it though can be on your terms, at least in your own heart and soul.

I’m not saying this doesn’t still involve hardship or sacrifice, hard work or pain. I’m just saying not only is it possible to live aligned to your souls true journey but it is the only way to find real, lasting happiness.


I was watching a spiritualists vlog last night. It talked a lot about dimensions and quantum reality. It confirmed a few things and I learned a few new things. But what stuck with me is that it was like an introduction to mysticism and not a guidebook. It was like a “these things are possible” but not a “how to” lecture.


Why can’t we just be told what to do and how to do it? Like: shake your right leg three times, repeat this phrase, salute the sun five times, walk backwards 10 paces at this exact location, on the first full moon at daybreak and you’ll have eternal enlightenment.

Life is not like this, especially not in this reality. In this reality you are confronted with a barrage of illusions and misinformation about what is important. One is not really shown how to live a life of grace and honor, of inner happiness, of Divine love and guidance.

Because these things are not seen as truly valuable or important here, they are given lip service in church maybe but they aren’t the foundation we build our lives on.

And why is that? Well…… I have my conspiracies but, regardless, fortunately we can all still find our own paths. And these paths can vary as widely as the grains of sand in this entire universe. Because there truly is no “one way” there. There is no “right” way to achieve inner freedom.

There are many ways. But there is also our own, one, very personal and singular path to our souls happiness and salvation on this planet. And the only person that can rightfully decide what that path is, and achieve fulfilment living it, is oneself.


of course I was never given the recipe. Now I see why there is no magic eternal pill. Now I understand why this is so….. why my life has been as it has been.

Because while the convergence of spiritual life and physical life need not run incongruent to each other, that is a bond one can only forge for oneself.

I am excited. I can’t even say for what exactly but I feel like, as topsy turvy ad my life is right now, that I’m headed the right way, finally.

It’s been a lot of talking about it for a long while. I’ve been stuck in my 3D life, making all these excuses for myself.

I don’t have a community. I don’t have a mentor. I’m not financially able. I have children to raise. I blah, blah, yata, yata.

I realize now it was all just fear and uncertainty. And it’s like I always tell my kids. Everyone is afraid of something. Most of us are afraid of many things. But you don’t let that fear stop you from doing the things you need to do and more importantly, the things you truly want to do.

Now I am learning to move forward through the fear and find the faith and strength I didn’t see or believe was there for me with each step; following the guideposts and guides along with my heart’s calling.

It’s a grand adventure ❣️


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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