I am unto myself!!

I am my own person in this world.

I can only be one absolute thing in this experience of life: me. So no matter what happens, what is said, what is done, what is thought I have ultimate control over one thing here: me. In so much as my responses, my reactions, my words, my actions, my feelings, my thoughts.

I have limited to no control over everything else.

So how I choose to exercise that is up to me. How I choose to use my time here. Where I choose to expend myself: my energy, my life. Within the confines given at any particular moment I define myself (to myself at least). I am not in charge of other people’s perceptions. I am not in charge of other people’s actions. I am not in charge of so much really. Too much to list.

But I am unto myself and while people can fuck with my mind and my body, only I can give them the right to fuck with my heart and soul. Only I decide how much I choose to take on, absorb and let affect me.

My daughter asked me to buy her a hammock with some money I owed her. I gave in but I wasn’t sure I saw the value in it. But now I sure do.

See the moon in the sky?

Right now I want to take all this anger and frustration, anxiety and stress in life and use that energy to power my life in a positive direction. That’s the plan. That’s my hope. Now gotta figure out how to implement that.

But for now nature calls.

I love nature❣️

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

6 thoughts on “I am unto myself!!”

    1. Lol. You mean the almost peeing my pants one. Ugghhh. The day went from idealic to abysmal by my own doing.

      The truth is I think I have to admit to myself that while I’m an introvert and enjoy spending time alone that I am also afraid sometimes out in the world. I felt very vulnerable on that hammock and while the scenery was beautiful I still felt a bit anxious. Which may also explain why I took the opportunity to drink after AAA came and got me into my car and I stopped at the first place possible to pee which was the local bar. 🙄🙄🙄

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    1. Lol. Thanks. It was very nice. Until I had to pee but locked my keys in my car and stopped at the first place I could find, which was a bar. And proceeded to drink and gamble the night away. 🤢😢😒

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