I am my own person in this world.
I can only be one absolute thing in this experience of life: me. So no matter what happens, what is said, what is done, what is thought I have ultimate control over one thing here: me. In so much as my responses, my reactions, my words, my actions, my feelings, my thoughts.
I have limited to no control over everything else.
So how I choose to exercise that is up to me. How I choose to use my time here. Where I choose to expend myself: my energy, my life. Within the confines given at any particular moment I define myself (to myself at least). I am not in charge of other people’s perceptions. I am not in charge of other people’s actions. I am not in charge of so much really. Too much to list.
But I am unto myself and while people can fuck with my mind and my body, only I can give them the right to fuck with my heart and soul. Only I decide how much I choose to take on, absorb and let affect me.
My daughter asked me to buy her a hammock with some money I owed her. I gave in but I wasn’t sure I saw the value in it. But now I sure do.
See the moon in the sky?
Right now I want to take all this anger and frustration, anxiety and stress in life and use that energy to power my life in a positive direction. That’s the plan. That’s my hope. Now gotta figure out how to implement that.
But for now nature calls.
I love nature❣️