I’m trying really hard to just be in the moment without judgement, or expectations. To just do the tasks at hand with as much intention as I can muster and not allow room for complaint or complacency.
I’m trying really hard. Otherwise I’d have to complain about what a hard week I’m having and no one wants to hear that. Right?
Did my teenager run into a parked car? Yes. Even though it was illegally parked on too narrow a street for parking, she still hit an unoccupied, parked car.
Did my printer die on the worst week possible? And no store has “cheap” printers during a pandemic that has everyone working from home. Causing me an unexpected $300 (including ink, at least). Yes. Yes it did.
Did I go up to do a formal move-in inspection for the renters only to find that the two large dogs are doing more damage to the floor than I expected? That in only a week they’ve managed to already create whole areas full of little scratches in the living room and hallway. It’s not that bad yet, merely very noticeable. But at this rate I’m scared to see what 6 months does.
Does it matter that I, in trying to get off my ex’s plan (that I paid for, but he I am pretty sure monitored) moved my phone over to Xfinity Mobile only to find that their network is truly horrendous? And I only get intermittent call service, at best and even then only if I am very close to a good wi-fi network.
And the thing that actually made me almost cry. It was officially announced yesterday that schools will not start in person next month. It will be exclusively online until at least October.
I am trying to take everything in stride. These are all just minor nuisances. Right? Nothing in and of itself monumentally horrific or catastrophic.
Just a pandemic that doesn’t seem to be going anywhere and life going on as best as possible.
And this is all me “not complaining” and living in the moment trying to find gratitude for the things I can.
It is sunny and beautiful outside. My children are intact (yes, I’ve lowered my parenting standards to this adjective). My new printer is really snazzy and technically I paid with it with unemployment’s assistance, very thankfully.
I think I’ll make a fruit salad. Watermelons are very sweet and juicy this time of year.