Relationships aren’t the end all be all
They aren’t the happily ever after
They are whatever they are
All their own thing
Being in one doesn’t make everything else perfect
Or even better; necessarily
I know this
But I know how financially it does usually provide some ease
And I know how even just the complacency of habits that you create within a relationship provide some stability and familiarity
Which in their own way, even when toxic, can be comforting.
And I know I’m fine single
But I catch myself feeling like the Loren Allred song “Never enough”.
And I hate it
Because I want to be this big ass tough bitch that can do whatever I need to do to survive and thrive in this world
I’m just a woman
And the comfort of my own person.
Pathetic, naive, juvenile, idiotic
I’m sure many more words too
Can be said here
But I have to accept that sometimes
This is how I feel
And it’s ok to feel this way.
It’s all ok.