I really, really, really do. They aren’t comfortable. They slip. If they don’t slip they feel too tight or constricting. I get dizzy and lightheaded wearing them. I also feel manaced. Not consciously. But the mental association of a mask is always one of danger or pain; isn’t it, historically. It’s a subconscious response.
This Pandemic is so fucking confusing too. Misinformation seems everywhere. And who’s information do you trust? Because the answer to that question greatly determines your stance towards it.
Is it a hoax? I don’t think so.
But I do think there is too much misleading information.
If you need masks and to close everything down, why has Sweden done so much better than the UK with it’s mortality percentages per 1 mil.
If it mostly strikes minorities then why haven’t we heard of mass waves of it in Africa or South American? If it affects the poor more than why was a slum city in India able to conquer it?
If they’ve found several things that seem to rapidly expedite recovery of this, that have been widely used before with little to no adverse affects, why haven’t we started mass producing this in huge quantities and giving it out like candy?
Do you see why it is all so confusing?
To me at least.
But I comply maybe because complying is typically in my nature. Maybe because if it helps saves one person’s life it will be worth it to me.
But I can’t say with all certainty I truly believe it all is the thing.
Especially when there is so much seemingly contradictory information and it really depends on your news sources what reality you seem to get.
It’s almost why I would prefer to take Sweden’s stance or even Italy’s (they saw a giant surge), unfortunately China isn’t too open and transparent about their numbers and methodologies and they seem very extreme in their responses. Like that one baby limit thing. That bit them in the ass; didn’t it?
But I guess the containment of this contagion seems to now be going smoothly for them.
Do we just have to bide our time and ride it out the best we can?
My only concern has and will continue to be having hospitals overwhelmed. And of course all the unnecessary deaths is a horrible thought to me.
Why we have no general consensus in this country intrigues and troubles me though. Greatly.
But I try not to worry.
Plus they are saying that people are dying from “broken heart syndrome” right now in very high numbers with this pandemic; which is a stress induced heart issue. Mostly couples that have lived their whole life together get it where one partner dies and then that same day or within days the other does too.
So stress is now more than ever a really bad killer. Not that it wasn’t before. But we need to guard against living in fear. Right?
I think that’s a worthy fight. And I try to champion against it every day. Until the day I hope to just be able to live, wholeheartedly, with no fear but solely with happiness at the prospect of being alive.
Gratitude is a huge factor in saving my life and my day to day quality of life. And I try so hard to speak my gratitude to people. I try to be gracious, respectful, give people their own space to be. I try to be genuine and honest.
I fall short, of course. I am a human being having an utterly human experience.
But I still hate masks.