It’s interesting when I learn things about myself. Something that clicks about myself. Like when I started learning about astrology and palmistry. When I learned about psychological tests, IQ tests and such.
I am always so fascinated to learn about myself as a human being going through life, as a person individually and as a species.
These things are all so clarifying. I don’t put too much credence into everything but I draw the bits and pieces I believe can help me.
Learning I am a Super Empath today was super cool. I seemed to fit the mold of all the characteristics.
So then I could learn even more things.
There are plenty of things I have been told I am and that I can agree the characters I usually seem to fit into well.
Have these made my life easier? I can’t fully say. Because my life has been so difficult so far and I obviously also have my weaknesses.
But it’s always fun to learn more about this life, my path, myself.
Sometimes I really like what I see, sometimes I don’t. Most times I learn to make my peace with it by making amends when I can and learning to find acceptance just trying the best I can.
That’s got to be enough. And it is. It is❣️
But there is one thing I’ve been told I am that I am so very confused about.
I know I have this ability, but I don’t know how to control it and none of the tactics I’ve learned so far have resonated with me quite yet.
I have half a mind to just go out and start trying to find training where I can from who I can without getting indoctrinated into anything in particular, because nothing I’ve learned so far has felt completely true and noble to me.
That’s my own hangup maybe but all I can go by in life is my gut and my heart. Logic, for being intelligent, had never really appealed to me in the sense of the word people like to use that and when I’ve tried to blindly follow it it has usually led me astray. 🤷🏽♀️🤣
Im telling this to myself mostly.
So the world looks like it’s falling apart. Societal constructs are pitted against each other, the climate seems freakish with natural disasters abundant everywhere, nuclear war has now gone into outer space*, the recession, the pandemic, need I go on?
Jeezus H. Mary
(I don’t know who that is. It’s just a name I like to use.)
But like the copy of the book within one of my favorite books says. Don’t Panic.
Maybe now more than ever that is appropriate to keep reminding myself. Maybe I should start carrying a towel. 🤣
*Which is space that we technically do not have a right to I would think. Isn’t there any intergalactic policy about that? 😜 Are we truly safer with more weapons? At what point is enough, enough? Never? Are we smart enough to understand and use this power for the benefit of mankind and not the destruction of? Because it seems threatening and destroying is its only real use.🤷🏽♀️😒🙄