Monday will be my last client for colon hydrotherapy; officially. I may return to work for Jill if she gets a PPP loan. I told her PayPal was still taking applications and you don’t have to be a member. They were really quick at giving me a hard pass. Lol
So anyways….. effective Tuesday I will begin micro-dosing THC. Luckily it is very legal and at the doses I will be taking I will still be able to function normally. I’m talking a smear of a syringe. Right now I need this to cope with life. I need this to help me with anxiety, pain management, insomnia, stress, body aches, headaches (redundant I know); not to mention how it helps with the effects and symptoms of Covid-19 or SARS-CoV-2 as it’s called now. π€·π½ββοΈ
The effects of hypoxia which I can not seem to get away from. It’s so odd how sensitive I am to it. I am fine. I self manage myself fine. I am lucky. My body gets better and better at staving off symptoms. I hope this isn’t any long term damage I sustained from having had it. Which I am absolutely positive I must have and was completely unaware or unsure of what was going on.
There was talk of apocalypses. It was all so confusing and distressing at first. It took awhile to believe or understand it. I guess maybe we will one day know the truth about this whole thing.
Meanwhile thank fucking God for THC. It’s my anti-depressant and my antianxiety and my sleeping pills and my migraine medicine and my relax with a glass of wine you barely sip on by the fire and my it’s gonna be alright pill or “I’m alright” pill. No wait. They don’t make those yet. Do they?
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Well regardless we will call this nature’s recipe.
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I used to have this ceramic piece of art of God laughing at one. Like a grimacing God half rolling his eyes. With a tinge of happiness at the stupidity of it all. Like maybe he was on the cusp of laughing and hoping you’d laugh along to but was going to laugh regardless.
It was surreal to me. I enjoyed it. It made me smile. Maybe the morbid part of me could laugh at that.
But I do sometimes think we all take ourselves way too God damn seriously. And pot helps me deal with that. βπ½πππ½ππ₯°π€βπ½