I have been talking to myself a lot lately about being truly courageous.
Of standing against the demons within myself that want to cloud my mind with thoughts of despair, stress, doubt and anxiousness.
To stand completely open to life as it comes at me with no predispositions, bitterness, judgement or contempt.
To let myself be truly free to experience this life full force; to take in as much as I can and to find peace within myself irregardless of what transpires outside of me.
To embrace this life in all its roller coaster madness as being my one shot here in this now and of not wasting it living in some false narrative that has me always doubting, always insecure.
To be truly awake and alive and responsive to what is actually happening in this moment; each moment anew, with a yielding heart, an open mind and a loving soul.
Completely open to the taciturn ways life can be, the unexpected, the dull, the heartbreaking, the joys and the triumphs all with an equal measure of myself. Not turning myself off, onto autopilot, or with anticipation of what I think will or should happen.
But letting myself just be; in this space and time, in a place of deep and true acceptance, in a place of curiosity and mindful awareness, in a place of conscious action, thought and speech instead of reactionary habit.
Because I know to the depths of my soul that this is the way to get the absolute most out of life, to live life to its fullest, to truly understand not only myself but my path here as well.
And I don’t want to miss my own life. And I especially don’t want to live it mired in the trenches of fear and overwhelming stress.
One life. One love. One me. One world. One you. One here and now.
Gotta make the best of it and as far as I can see this is one way to do that. Now putting these words into action is a completely different story. 😂
And that is where the true courage, faith and determination come in.