Well…. I finally got a call from the unemployment department and qualified for 3 weeks of unemployment benefits. I didn’t qualify the following two weeks because I had too much in eBay sales. My base weekly benefits are only $130. And the pandemic $600 weekly extra is ending soon I believe.
I was discussing this with my teenager. That even though this week I will have few sales and would qualify again for benefits in order to get them I need to apply for two jobs. Jobs I actually don’t want or have time for.
I was telling her that while I know someone (who happens to be a white male) that is currently working full-time, claiming unemployment benefits and is not applying for jobs that this is not something I would ever do or feel comfortable with for myself. So I was unsure if I should keep up with it.
I don’t want to turn down $130 a week but I also don’t want to apply for jobs I can’t take. I am absolutely not working at a grocery store or Amazon. I do not want to be in the general public right now.
A few days later she came up to me and told me I should lie. I should take the assistance regardless of what is required and that this is what most everyone would do in my position.
I told her in no uncertain terms that while I understood where she arrived at such a thought process that this was absolutely not me. I would not defraud the government or anyone for that matter solely because I needed the resources and could.
I explained that we were very fortunate to not be in a position for me to need to make that choice for our survival. We have food. We have a roof over our heads. And that I was not going to change who I was and profit by lies, because that is not me and I hope it will never be me. And that in order for this to stand true I have to gaurd against situations like this that come up in life that could easily be twisted around and justified.
But the more I thought about it the more I realized there should be a win/win somewhere; just a matter of where.
And I decided that if I kept accurate weekly spreadsheets of my gross income that on the weeks it dips I could still apply and I could do so legally by also applying for strictly remote jobs, which there are jobs for now. Maybe not a lot of them but enough to apply to two a week on the weeks I would need to. And if I got one I’d have to figure that out later, as I go. Lol
So on top of all the other things I am doing now I have to add this, if I want to keep getting assistance at least. Which seems the responsible thing to do as head of a household.
Ughhhhh…. this single parent gig is not for the faint of heart. Fortunately we humans have the extraordinary capacity to rise to the level we need to in life. I am ever grateful for that. But sometimes it does all feel rather exhausting. Doesn’t it?