I am so very sad for almost everything going on in this country.
All of it.
Financially; Except for the upper income brackets and a few others that have managed to come out ok from this, more than half the population is suffering some effects from the recession. And while some jobs are back, mostly in the service industry; corporations are still hinting at more layoffs, even though so many got government loans/bailouts.
We also have rioting and talk of dismantling police forces. Which I have mixed feelings about; even though the city of Camden, California did something like what a lot of cities are proposing to good effect.
They reduced the force, and put money into building community spirit and hiring more minorities. They go door to door and build relationships with the residents. It seems a little like a PR platitude, but they did weed out some bad apples and the crime rate lowered as well.
There is definitely room for improvement with the union and Qualified Immunity*. But dismantling them completely seems absurd and I don’t know that most people want that. I definitely don’t.
Then too add in the pandemic. Which seems to be ticking back up even though I don’t personally know of anyone sick, but then I know very few people and right now talk to even less.
And has anyone else noticed the escalation that seems to be going on between the “superpower” and heavily nuclear armed countries of this planet? Is this normal or are we just getting more information from the news?
Like how American knew nothing of the Bay of Pigs Cuban missile fiasco. Which I’m just saying that few knew exactly how close we got to nuclear war.
But seriously. This madness seems so crazy!!
I can not wrap my head around it and the thing that troubles me the absolute most is how selfish people, corporations and governments behave.**
So this Christopher Columbus thing boils down to this for me.
History painted this cruel and evil man out to be some famous explorer and potential humanitarian. When he technically didn’t even discover the United States first or second.
To keep respecting and cherishing this man is almost akin to cherishing Hitler. Most people that understand the supposed real history of his legacy; where he raped, pillaged and plundered his way through the Carribean say it’s fair to dislike this man. (Would it be fair to call it a war or conquering when your opponent isn’t equally armed and you come bearing lethal toxins/diseases? When they think you are there in peace? I don’t claim to understand the game of war.)
So, point is, even if some people don’t necessarily believe this to be true history, most people do. So to not respect how vile his character is to a lot of people, especially people systematically oppressed to this very day is just rude and lacks compassion. And I won’t go as far as to say it paints a person who chooses to idolize him still as being a bit cruel and evil themselves but it can maybe be seen that way. 🤷🏽♀️
Listen I’ve just about had enough of this cancel culture too. But at the same time wrongs must be righted. Isn’t it time for that?
We all deserve redemption. We all deserve some respect. That Christopher Columbus statue didn’t deserve decapitation. Did it? I don’t understand or condone violence personally until it is truly in personal defense or defense of another.
We should have the right to “stand our ground”, even against cops, no? It wasn’t exactly a life or death thing with the Bundy Occupation, but it seemed maybe so to me with Waco. 🤷🏽♀️
Yet we also saw how wrong that law went in Florida when this was used against the person wrongfully killed, who probably doesn’t happen to just be a minority.
Yet in times of true distress this should be allowed, logically. No?
I don’t know. This entire life is so confusing to me sometimes. I don’t get what half the people complain about, usually. I don’t get the contempt. I don’t get the hypocrisy. I don’t get all the fucking lying. I don’t get how all the fear is productive on any level. And the stress? Jeezus. It’s unreal. And we all choose to live and behave this way is the craziest part to me.
When we can choose so much more for ourselves and the world. We can choose to be the best in us. We can choose compassion, love, redemption of every soul, especially our own. The souls we all share to begin with, all coming from a source of pure love.
Maybe I’m wrong. But in this world I believe I’m not. I’m absolutely not.
And I don’t know when if ever this world will truly wake up.
*I can see how the government agreed to these terms though. Because in civil matters when you sue a police officer on the job, which is a government job, the government is liable and has to pay the fines. Millions of dollars of potential fines. I suppose the insurance they carry must have a cap on it, they must not want to use it or do they even carry any? I don’t know honestly. But I do know it was in the governments interest to give them these unfair rights.
**How have we not gained any spiritual inroads in this lifetime? After more than 200,000 years I just absolutely refuse to believe this is the best we have in us. Instead I choose to believe that there has been a systematic and purposeful poisoning of our souls over the coarse of the last few millennia, if not much more and especially ramped up recently through technology, with war against our physical bodies too; through chemical warfare, the mass corruption of our food, air and water quality and of a lot of the systems in place in the medical establishment.
And I say this because I can see it to clearly and I know what we are capable off. I see the beautiful, hurt souls we all carry around inside of each and every one of us. And I refuse to believe all this hatred and fear is all we can bring to the table. I think it is unfortunately what people choose to bring, and let others incite them to bring into their lives.
When I know, I KNOW, how absolutely fucking mezmerizingly beautiful and loving human beings can truly be. How majestic our souls are.
If the world didn’t run so counterculture to this belief though, is quite another thing.