I’m starting to feel conflicted

Black lives matter!!!!

But they are not the only group historically oppressed in the US.

It started with Native American Indians and progressed to Blacks

Has dug it’s heels into Hispanics on many occasions (lest we forget things like The Battle of San Jacinto and other historic land grabs and massacres and how they are still used for cheap slave like labor and given little to no rights, like field pickers).


Along the way the Chinese and Italians and even Irish were highly discriminated against.

The Japanese ended up in encampments.

And the welfare and education of poor whites, like in the Appalachians have also historically been deeply disregarded.

I guess all the poor white in “fly over states”.

The shrinking of the middle class by way of job losses, of especially good union jobs, while cost of living sky rockets and homes become far too expensive.*

The homeless


And even still women

With that me too movement

And wanting to be believed and heard

Plus still arguing about reproductive rights and control over our own bodies

The crushing debt of college and higher learning

I mean I could go on and on

And with even the environment in on the travesty; of being used and abused and seemingly few caring

We have a very long way to go

As individuals

As a country

As a species

As an entire planet really

So right now we are doing black lives matter

right this moment in the US at least

Other countries are fighting their own battles

Great, I guess

Things need to be addressed

Instead of swept under the rug

Again and again and again

But least we forget there are so many other causes too

That deserve to also be addressed

And that’s where my conflict sets in


So where do I stand?

I don’t have any intention of protesting

Although historically in my life only once did I ever feel compelled to

When we first started war in Afghanistan and I knew we were entering war under false pretenses.

I knew a lot of souldiers would die

And even then I didn’t actually go to one

I couldn’t get off work πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ**


*And I see the irony of that with the police union and having tried going against a teacher union myself. πŸ™„πŸ™„πŸ™„

**But the way I ultimately see it….

This is a people problem

We do not treat each other with kindness and regard

We do not treat each other equitably


And with compassion

We do not honor each other

And our different struggles

And help each other out

Because if we did that


We wouldn’t need a black lives matter protest or any other protest at all really

But until then I guess we need laws to self govern ourselves and the country to “be best” and treat each other with equity. And have consequences when we don’t since some people only barely learn the hard way and others won’t heed without threats. And then too make these laws be enforced equally.

Such is life right now for us stupid humans I suppose and the best we may get at this time. πŸ˜’πŸ˜’πŸ˜’

Although I have eternal hope for more.


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

8 thoughts on “I’m starting to feel conflicted”

  1. In Canada our Black Lives Matter movement with be Indigenous Lives Matter. Native girls and women disappear without anyone wondering where they have gone. They are kept on tracts of poor land. When they do come into the cities they are watched……they are discriminated against. They do things to mitigate the chance that someone might accuse them of theft when they go shopping. I have seen first hand at work. I had a couple come in and insist that I hold their bags from other stores so they would not be harassed. Do you know how I felt hearing that? As in any group there are the good there are the bad and there are the indifferent. For too long I have been indifferent. I have stood on the sidelines. What I can do to make a difference I do not know but I know I need to add my voice. In the US cops kill Black men with impunity. Beat them. Arrest them for no reason. Harass them all because of the color of their skin. This is not the first time cops have been filmed beating/harming a Black man. Back in the ’90”s there was Rodney King. And I cried then too watching the video of how he was treated. I cried watching the city of Los Angeles burn. I cried watching black men (I will not give them the respect that is deserving of Black) drag a white man from his semi and beat him. I cried because it hurt watching so much injustice. So much blatant disregard for life. We are at a crossroads today. It is time. Time for everyone to say to hell with what we ‘think’ we know lets find out the truth. With open eyes. In every ethnicity there are going to be the bad eggs. I once more am a highjacker lol of reply section.

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    1. Wow Jay!! Really well said. I have indeed heard that of indigenous. I think even in places like Alaska that is an issue too. I can’t imagine.

      In certain parts of Mexico, especially along the border women go missing all the time. Just vanish. It’s so creepy and sad.

      I lived through those riots. I cried too watching it all happen. It was all so very sad. So hard to understand. Those attacks on Reginald Denny, Rodney King, the looting, the burning down of buildings. They burned down the local DMV.

      I don’t get hatred. I mean I do. I’ve felt it. But I don’t understand discrimination. If we helped each other out in life. Truly lent each other a hand in life, this would be such a beautiful world.

      Instead we have to deal with this crap, over and over and over.

      Humans are so fucking dense and self serving. I have hope. But at the same time I can’t help but just shake my head and wonder why. It doesn’t have to be this way. It really doesn’t.

      I’m glad you are trying to find your voice to help where you can. Ultimately that is all any of us can do. Try to stop that narrative. Try to be a force for good in the world. Try to make a difference a f help when and where we can.

      You are so awesome!! πŸ₯°β£οΈπŸ¦Έβ€β™€οΈπŸŽ‡πŸ™πŸ½πŸŒβœŒπŸ½


      1. As trite as it sounds we need to educate our children. We need to be role models. What we want can be reality when we teach our children color blindness and kindness.
        You are awesome too. πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ’œ

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        1. Thanks❣️

          Yes. Exactly. We must lead by example. We must be the ideals we hold to be true. We must be kindness, be compassion, be love, be peace. It has to start somewhere.

          Why not now?


          1. Crying is cathartic. Feelings are a good thing. Learning to master them is something altogether different. Lol

            Keep being you❣️


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