The original sin


I abhor it.

Even my kids know that if they do something wrong and then lie about it also there will be much more severe consequences.

Mistakes are one thing. Even lack of thinking things through sometimes is understandable. We all have moments of disregard. But lying is where that line is drawn deep in the sand and creates a gulf I can not and will not accept.

Lying is the absolute worst.

Whether that’s lying to oneself, pretending for want of civility and cohesion, or just downright manipulation. It’s ALL wrong.

I have wished so much in this life to live in a world where people mean what they say and say what they mean.

My only way to fight that is to live it. It is not always easy, but I suppose it is noble. Nobility and honor don’t put food on the table or a 1959 Deville in my garage or even garner much respect in this topsy turvy world. But so be it.

You have to stand for something to make this whole thing count. You really do.

And I like to think I stand for truth. At least my own truth. The version I’m familiar with. Whether that ultimately is the real truth or not is something I don’t quite know yet.

But I like to think it is. Because damage causes by the truth is one of breaking down walls of illusion and distortion. It is not about hurting people.

And even when I do refrain sometimes from telling the truth, for what I deem necessary reasons I refuse to lie; absolutely refuse.

Now you’d think I’d be so happy and grandiose with myself about this. But this resolve (for lack of a better word) has cost me greatly in life because so very often people don’t seem capable of handling or even wanting of the truth, and it has destroyed and fractured relationships.

But I am who I am, for better or worse. And while I may not be able to change the world at least in some regards I haven’t let it change me.

Or maybe, more appropriately, I have taken the lessons learned and made myself better because of them, or in spite of them. Who cares really? The outcome is the same.

I do this because I give a fuck. I give a great big huge fuck about this world and this life and because of that I refuse to lie to any of you; even when it comes back to bite me in the ass, even when doing so would be in my own best interest, even when lying would have been much simpler, even when lying to myself would have made it all better.

No one ever said this life would be easy, but I am trying to find a way to make it worthwhile.

This is my way. This is the way I have found.

May everyone find their own truth!


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

11 thoughts on “The original sin”

          1. For some reason I had copied most of it out.
            Looking for an online page/site/description of specific type of energy release.
            Do you know when you open your hands wide and flat, then close thumb with finger in a circle and say – what I did it for a few days ago – I release the need to use, then bring both hands in front of you, one on top of the other keeping the thumb in a circle with a finger – depends which finger whether it’s from body, energetically can’t remember other two – so it’s in a circle and put each hand on top of each other, I release the need to use. Then put your hands flat against your chest, I release the need to use. Do it 3 times. Breathe in and out a few times.
            Then do it again, in the middle with a different finger, until you’ve done them all.
            Do you know what I mean?
            Not very clear at all!! But if you’ve used it you should recognise this. I hope!

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          2. I’ll have to look that up. I’ve never heard of it before, but it makes perfect sense, not just symbolically, but we have progressed as a species to a great extent because of our brains and our thumbs. If only we could put that aside, put aside our desire to use things, people, objects and such to open our spiritual selves up. It’s a truly beautiful and potentially very releasing exercise. Thank you for sharing. πŸ₯°β£οΈπŸ™πŸ½πŸŒˆ


          3. If you find the names, I’d love to hear! I was wanting to share it with someone but rathered share a link than write it out nonsensically…

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          4. You wrote it out well, I thought. If I come across anything like that I will let you know and please let me know too. I am fascinated by things like this. Tricks for your subconscious mind to connect to you conscious mind and produce beneficial results, especially spiritually. That’s my jam!! I love it. πŸ™πŸ½πŸŒˆπŸ’‹πŸ₯°


          5. I fortunately or unfortunately know most of what I know from a deep inner sense than from anything I’ve learned from outside sources. I listen to it now more than ever and let it guide me to what sparks my soul even more. But I’m a bit of a stubborn soul and I learn best hands on. So it’s a bit of a conundrum. Good thing I have this inner knowledge or I’d be pretty dense. LolπŸ€£πŸ€£πŸ™πŸ½

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