When I think about it deeply… all I’ve really wanted, my entire life, is to feel safe.
From being kidnapped by my father at 2 and left to live with an aunt I’d never met because he was mad my mother filed for divorce. Which only happened after many dalliances on his part with the crescendo being his impregnating my babysitter.
To finding a true love, with whom my heart, my ideas, my loves, my life and who I am and want to be would be and feel completely safe with them always.
To just trying to navigate existing in this world. Because while it can feel safe sometimes, one becomes aware very young that this feeling is not only fleeting but unpredictable.
So how then to feel safe in a world that is, for all intents and purposes, very unsafe?
The only way I can think of is from within.
Personally, I believe it helps to cultivate a mind/body connection.
It helps to meditate and know yourself well.
It helps to breath deeply and be able to center yourself, or remain calm.
But these are merely helpful suggestions. What it is absolutely a must involved to feel safe is to be fully present in each moment; anew.
Which means no expectations, no preconceived notions, no anger, no bias, no prejudices, no worry, no nothing. Just letting what be is. Not just in your outer reality but within yourself. Not in a reactive or even active way, but more in a watchful, perceptive way of truly looking at things around you and in you. Without needing to do anything or be anything in response without first understanding and seeing with not your mind but your heart and soul as well.
Now, of course, this is not necessarily easy, but it gets easier with practice and the immediate release of all the anxious stress we carry around, like badges of honor, can be profound and powerful and so beneficial to our health, our mental well being and the people around us. Living in a state of peace effects our entire world, inside and out in truly positive and impactful ways.
But it’s not something I can or want to convince anyone of. It’s something that really needs to be experienced to be fully understood. Which is the crux of enlightenment. It’s hard enough to find when you’re looking for it, let alone those that don’t think there is any value to true, heartfelt peace of mind.
Its really hard to talk about these things which are intangible in words and explain in quantifiable terms its many benefits because we are all different and our needs are different, our resolve and intentions as well, so results vary.
But I like to think that deep down inside we all wish to feel safe, on some level. I just wish we could all stop searching outside ourselves for that.