It’s that day again. I have always enjoyed celebrating birthdays; not just my own but everyone’s. My ex-husband used to have this thing where he never told his co-workers it was his birthday so if he had to work I would bring a cake and pizza to his workplace and embarrass the crap out of him. I would laugh so hard doing it too. I threatened to send clowns; but that never happened because he started requesting his birthday off.
He was the first one to text me today. But Brad still won that battle by dropping off my present and a balloon last night after I went to sleep. I have somehow gotten myself into these situations between men my entire life, sometimes even completely unbeknownst to me. One time I had two best friends make a $1 bet to see who would get me first. I only found out after I began dating one of them. I used to think it was just a way to give them permission to both pursue me but now I lean more to thinking that people; especially men, love to compete. But who knows?
My mother asked me what I wanted. I said “freedom”. Once she made me clarify how I meant it exactly she told me it was too far above her pay grade and we settled on a box of See’s Candy.
One of the kidlets has two doc appointments today. So we will be out all afternoon together; come home, shower and wash/disinfect our clothes.
My eldest drew me this. It’s from a photo of when she was small. What else could I want in life?
The bank gave me notice that I have until the end of the month to make my first mortgage payment on the loan modification terms. At that time they’ll start foreclosure proceedings, but I can also reapply. Except I don’t see the point right now. It will buy me more time, but 🤷🏽♀️. I suppose if I can rent out the house at that time and at least keep my investment, but I can’t predict anything with the way the world is going right now.
I am still seeing if I get the hardest hit loan from the state. But I’m not sure, if it even comes through, it will be enough to cover what I owe.
So I’ve started to spitball ideas of where to move. Guessing this summer we will have to make that happen. That seems so far away though, even though it’s only 2 months from now really. My expenses are so high living here that even without paying a mortgage but especially without my part-time job and currently having my businesses closed I can not afford to live here. I am having to draw from my meager savings. Which I’m sure is what a lot of people are having to do right now.
I do have colonic clients wanting to come in and I’m hearing from a lot of people wanting to sell things on consignment on eBay. So, now that my liver is back and I’m feeling pretty good I guess I’ll start working next week.
Honestly, truthfully, there are instances where I can stop people from going to emergency with colonics. I hate that people get to that point, but I’m glad I can help people avoid going to the hospital; especially now. Right?
Well……off to start my day.
Big hug from my heart to yours.