Not alone

We are all in this uncomfortable and unusual situation together. I don’t know if that provides comfort to anyone, but it does to me.

In this I’ve decided a few things.

1) I am not going to be reading or watching the news. It is all far too depressing, confusing and stress inducing. If I need to know anything exceptionally important I’m sure someone will tell me. It’s hard enough keeping a good mood knowing you can’t go anywhere and that things may get worse before they get better.

2) I’m denying the loan modification. Especially since I’ve been officially laid off of my part time job and I am not taking clients for the next week, let alone knowing how things will go once this is all over.

3) I am going to take this time to really connect with my children and my inner self. I do have a lot of work to do still. I want to deep clean my equipment. I have to list my eBay clients things. I also have my own things to list. I want to organize my garage. The list is truly long of the things I can do during this time. So boredom is not really an option.

4) I’m not going to bother forecasting the future anymore. I’m going to instead work on making each day rich, enjoying what I can and truly being present, calm, centered, at peace with myself and the world. And let things come as they will. Dealing with things one single solitary moment at a time. When the future comes I’ll look at it then. In this very turbulent time it doesn’t help to try to figure out where it’s going, where I’m going and what’s going to happen. It helps to stay as bright and confident within myself as I can. That’s my gift to myself, my children and the world.

Doesn’t mean I’m going to spend my savings on gold bullions (they’re sold out anyways). Doesn’t mean I’m going to stockpile guns or plan a holiday for once this is over. It means I stay true to myself; my core beliefs. This is the time to search within; to find redemption, to find peace, to find myself, to find inner happiness.

It will all be ok. One way or another. Right now I have little to no control of the world outside me. But I have all control of the world within.

Be blessed. All of you and remember….. you are not alone.


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

2 thoughts on “Not alone”

  1. I love this.
    I stopped reading the news last week and I’ve stopped freaking out.
    I’m glad re your loan modification. Now you don’t have the impossible pressure. I hope and pray it all works out for you.
    Enjoy every moment! Of just living and being…
    Love, light, and glitter

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