I’m a selfish fuck

I am utterly selfish.

Why do you think I practice grounding myself? Why do I practice being in the moment? Why do I try to be kind, compassionate and empathetic? Why do I try to keep an open mind and look at all sides of something? Why do I try so hard to find peace and balance within myself?

Because I am utterly and completely selfish.

Because grounding myself helps me feel connected to something bigger than me, something strong and solid and much more lasting than my skin encasement and that helps me feel stabilized.

Because not worrying about the past or stressing about the future helps me to find calmness and joy in whatever moment I find myself.

Because being kind, compassionate and empathetic has actually kept me from making a huge fool of myself many more times than I can count and gives me the chance to connect with people in meaningful ways, which is always much more pleasant than mundane superficialities.

Because keeping an open mind and listening to all sides is how I learn and grow and become a better, more informed human being and then can try to relate to everyone on some level about something; which makes for a much more pleasant life.

Because finding peace and balance with myself is the only way I’ve found to get a really great night sleep and have the clarity of mind to bring out the best in myself and have true contentment within this life.

See….. all selfishly motivated.

All of these and many more reasons. So, you see, I’m not trying to be a good person to win some trophy or build some stairway to heaven. I’ve just found, for myself personally, that it’s the most enjoyable way to be without having to suffer any more additional guilt, second guessing or deep regrets than life already dishes out to me.

It’s basically the least hassle way to live. Have I perfected it? Absolutely not. That’s not ever going to be possible. But I accept that I am flawed beyond repair in my human amalgamation and I am just trying to make the best of it.

See how selfish I am.


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

4 thoughts on “I’m a selfish fuck”

  1. I’ve heard permutations of this argument before. “Well, taking care of yourself is selfish.” Beyond the fact that you have to be alive and healthy to do things for others, I think there is something innate and beautiful about self-care that does not count as selfishness. Truth, beauty, justice, my love. ❀

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    1. Yes, but I allow myself the vanity to think I’m just like everyone else: inherently selfish and unselfish all at once. Lol

      Let me be selfish dammit. πŸ˜‹


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