Laying in bed. My liver is hurting again. Made myself drink Epsom salt. Ugghhhhh…. that stuff is horrendous.
I was just floating through memories laying here. For some reason the thought popped in my head of a sweet, uber rich client I had back in CA that had a collection of high end furniture, bicycles and fountain pens he gave me to sell. One time, when I sold his $8k mid century modern coffee table the dealer that bought it got to the house and pretended I didn’t exist. I was standing 3 feet from him when he went after my client wanting to sell the remainder of his collection for him. Telling him he could do a better job which was maddening to me all things considered. My client took his card and I walked away.
Instances like this have happened to me so often in life where I should have gotten mad and said something, but didn’t. I just let people be assholes to me. Then I wonder how many times I’ve been screwed over behind my back and not even known it. I’m sure that number is exponential to the times I’ve actually seen it happen. But …..
the redeeming thought is that life is a teeter-totter. There is the flip side. There are the times I have been saved by people. Often by the kindness of strangers I didn’t even know; kindness with no expectations. People going out of their way to help when they didn’t have to. That in itself is priceless. There is truly so much beauty in this world, both from humankind, made by humankind and most especially in nature. Then too, all the love that can be felt, had, shared, enjoyed and experienced here. Those things are very worthwhile.
So it’s a matter of not letting the teeter-tottering knock you off balance. It’s a matter of trying to maintain inner equilibrium in this turbulent, tumultuous, passion filled life that can ebb from heights of glory to pits of despair; from periods of mad frenzy to times of mind numbing boredom.
Is there purpose to this? Is there a method to it? Is there true success to this adventure beyond the frivolities humankind concerns itself with? I like to think so. And it’s what helps me in maintaining that inner balance for myself too. Knowing….. I’m not playing the game wrong. We just aren’t playing the same game I think. 🤷🏽♀️🤣