Life is proprietary

Who do you answer to?

Who/what do you live for?

Who has the authority to tell you what, how, when, where to be?

What stressors have you by the balls?

What/who have you given power to?

What do you revere?

What do you loath?

Who/what has your attention?

We give up so much governance over our lives and we don’t realize how much this shapes our entire existence. We don’t consciously grasp how much we let circumstances, society, government, family, friends, media, (outside factors) shape us. When ultimately we have the control. We get to decide. We have choice. And yet so much in this life we just tow the line, without any real analysis of what we are committing our lives to; of the structures at play, of who we let ourselves become.

Simply shrugging our shoulders and going along with the program. I understand how hard it is to take a cold hard look at oneself and one’s life and truly see the masks, the skeletons, the lies, the fears, the vices, the insecurities. To take a good look at the role we have played in manifesting our own suffering and in perpetuating suffering onto others (willingly or not; consciously or not).

That is one hard pill, let me tell you. But without taking the blinders off we can’t see the full picture. We can’t see how much power we truly have in this life. We can’t see how much power we constantly give away. We can’t truly see where we are allocating our truest, more prescious resource; ourselves…. our time, attention and energy.

Your life is proprietary to you. You get to make your own mistakes. You get to live your own saga in this choose your own adventure.


I was thinking last night how sometimes you can’t see all the choices present in any given situation in life because you’re only looking from one distinct vantage.

So many times in life I have taken a step down a path that then opened up a horizon I never knew possible (good or bad). One I simply couldn’t see before because I was on a different path then and the new paths view was obscured from where I was then….if that makes sense. Kind of like a multi-fork in the road where there may be clear markers but the roads are so twisted or heavily forested that you really can’t see ahead, onto any of the paths.

This is why I’ve been trying to follow my heart and soul more blindly lately. Because I understand how much better they can see the future and the possibilities that lay ahead of me than my analytical mind can grasp.

But these are things I’ve learned the hard way and I can accept that this may not be everyone’s path in life. But I never claimed I spoke for anyone but myself or anything more than what I truly believe to be true here in this now I find myself.

But I will refer us both back to the title. You do you boo!

Happy Saturday!!


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol