We all have natural, ingrained talents given to us by powers much stronger than any human capabilities could ever touch on.
I, personally, think I have many wonderful qualities. But what screamed in my head this morning is “I am a healer!!”. It was one of those thoughts that just popped in my head unprovoked and it was frankly a bit cantankerous about it too. As if I had been in the middle of an argument with myself and I was screaming it to myself in the mirror.
The exchange was something like:
ok, yes, what am I supposed to do with that information?
Accept it once and for all….
Fine. Done. Now what? (Insert nervous laughter here)
(Eyes roll) Well…. Do it.
(Big gulp). Ummmmmm….
Ok let’s just say that hypothetically I was put here to help heal the world; starting with myself I suppose, yes? Maybe.
I mean…. so technically, I have done this before for myself and others. I’ve seen it in action. But it feels like something beyond me, beyond my control, even when I am actively using healing energy. How do I rationalize this really, even and maybe especially to myself? And how do I truly aim to control something I can barely grasp and hardly truly explain?
I am just an ordinary human. I ascertain nothing else. I know we all have intrinsic healing capacities, so I am definitely not giving myself extra credit here. I just perceive the energy pretty well because I’ve known it for so long. But that doesn’t make it mine, if that makes sense. And it doesn’t make me a professional at it being that I have actively avoided this most of my life. So it feels a bit like those people doctors make practice crawling around because they skipped it as a child and it’s an important part of one’s development.
The point is that I just start
somewhere, that feels right and go from there.
But it seems a tall ask when I have so much else to do and think about in life right now. But I guess this is also just one more excuse I am giving myself really. Isn’t it?
I’m in a situation where I need help with something and I’m asking for it from someone I know could be a potential danger and yet I don’t have many more choices. Is the devil you know better than a stranger? I truly don’t know the answer to that. I seem to be put in this situation quite often in life though, so maybe I need to look at that a bit more.
I have been able to help heal bodies, I have been able to help heal emotions, but I don’t know how to help heal circumstances….or at least not consciously that I’m aware of. If I knew how to do that I’d get right on it. Trust me!
I guess it doesn’t hurt to try. But isn’t that what I have been doing this whole time? Not sure how much more I can do there really. Just not sure.